Speedo #2 and the backyard pets
Miss Lucky showed up at our gate right the day we move into this house called villa 5 Pandino in Pointe Noire. It was raining hard the night before and the next morning we adopted miss Lucky as our pet. She has been with us for more than three years now. She is very intelligent. Now she can hear our voice and can response to our call when she feels like it.
Today I got another little land turtle miss Speedo . She reminds me of our first green turtle we got from the Chinese
piano teacher in Oakland. The kids call her Speed. These littles ones has nothing to do with the tortoise in the
Aesope tale , the hare and the tortoise. Both little baby turtles crawl and climb at a speed of lightning. They run on
the ground so fast that my kids name them Speed. Too bad we were too careless and our first Speed past away
before we can see it full grown.
Now we have this little Speed#2. The kids did not get to meet her yet. I want to send the photo of cute little Speed #2 to all of them today. How these turtles remind me that idea , value , perception and belief can change. Everything changed every moment. How many times do I have to remind myself. For example ,my belief or general belief that turtle are slow. Look at these little Speed and I have to change my idea. The day Speed # 2 came to our house. I put her in an enclosed area. And went inside the house to go to the bathroom. When came out she’s already climbed up
The corner of the enclosed area and ready to escape. I need to put under surveillance and did not dare to leave her in the unsupervised area in the garden. She is too tiny to be there and we will never find her back should she escape from the enclosure.
Miss Speed#2 was a pleasant surprise for me for the day but the best is yet to come. After putting Speed in a safe place I went out to pick up John. He has been nursing Nichole, who was sick with malaria, over the last few days. John had kindly volunteer to help me with my blog. I am so excited to have this blog up and running the way I want. It turn out that John spent the whole late afternoon not only patiently setting up the blog but solve my web site problem and clean up quite a lot of junk in my computer. The task involve several calls to Tou in Bay area at 7.45AM California time I only tried three times and Tou miraculously picked up the phone. Handing the phone to John and hear the two young guys talk computer language that completely beyond me was so much fun and entertaining. We even manage to send the whole web site to Luann and set up everything with network solution. We made so much progress in so short a time. It was a Godsend or what. After this, ordeal to me, a snap of a finger for John, we have a Friday light diner together with Franklin and Nichole who managed to to eat a few bites. My husband was so excited to find out that John came from Kinshasa and they have all kids of discussion about the different sites in the Belgian Congo that they both know very well. After that we spend the rest of the Friday night listen to John’s piano music.
John left the next day after joining us for drumming and playing a few guitar songs for us. I still humming ‘ All my loving ‘and some songs that I like from last night. I don’t know the name but it starts It’s not time to make a change such relax take it easy. You are young that’s your false there so much you have to know find the girl settle down iF you want you can marry look at me I am old but I am happy. …..
These past two weekends have been very musical to me with the visit of the Seth Sharp last week and John this week. Thinking of the blessings I received while meditation everyday at the same spot in the house. I have been trying to write down the sensation. It was difficult to express the surge of sensation I experience during meditation the Guru , in a form of CD voice even suggest drawing but now I know better. I want to sing that.
Yes , I idea and belief change again. The belief about singing has been changed and what express the closest to my sensation of meditation so far is elaborated in the song ‘Across the Universe”
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pool of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world (3)
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes.
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letterbox
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
Sound of laughter shades of earth are ringing through my open view
Inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
I just realize the word JAI , GURU, Deva , and OM.
Jai is like hail, or Chaiyo in thai meaning Cheers in a spiritual way. Guru is great teacher.Deva is angle or light beings. OM is primordial sacred sound used a lot in Mantra and yoga.
It has been so many years since I hear this song but now it make so much sense and have so much profound meaning to me. I am glad my husband did not get modernized too quickly and still keep the 33-45 records. It is very old fashion to be using the record when every one else are using CD but nothing gonna change my world, nothing gona change my world, nothing gona change my world……
So much of the new paradyme which at times will become old replacing by another paradyme.
And here is the vibration of what Africa has offered to me so far.
Sunday, March 4, 2007
Thursday, March 1, 2007
March 1,2007
This is more flexible than website. I am stuck with my web site for almost a year now. can not do anything about it yet. Hi Selene, Izzy, Valera , Benjamin, Sylvia , Nichole. I am sitting in front of my husband 's computer at 8.30 pm in Pointe Noire , Congo. Finally got this blog started. What did I do today. We went to Migitel hotel to meet Chelsea from the U.S. embassy to do some paper work with her. But it is more than likely those paper will not work with what we are trying right now. LAst night we have fun with all our diner guests. i make a note to myself to get DVD of teh movie ,the last king of Scotland when it come out. I also revisit my intention for this 2007. Very ambitious goal. i want to practice meditation everyday for at elast 20 minutes and practice yoga for an hour and a half each day. I have started yoga teacher training course with Ajan Sunee in Bangkok last November when I was in thailand. It has always been my intention to practice yoga daily and teh only way to do taht is to get the teacher's training course going. Great that finally I found the right teacher and way to do it. Ajan Sunee is the student of my first yoga teacher Khru Chod Hasbumreu back when I was a high school student. Khru Chod passed away a few years ago and I ahve been practing all styles and forms of yoga in California without really get it. It was great to be back home and do the style that really works for me. Let's see this year I will write down each day how I feel about my practice of both meditation and yoga.I know it will work for me.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
10 feb
Pointe Noire , Congo
Yoga journal. I read only one magazine right now. That is yoga journal. As I become more and more involved in yoga and practice it everyday I started to realize and experience the benefit of it. It is obvious that there are a lot of benefit but how to trick ourselves into setting up a routine to do it daily is not easy. I think of Brian Buffini when I was still a real estate broker. He ask us to write a personal note to five people everyday. It is not easy to do everyday but now I am making a pledge to practice yoga for one hour at least everyday. I will email or write to my teacher back home in Thailand. What do I want to accomplish this year. Still not prioritise it yet. One of my goal to do last year was to publish my book and go on the yoga teacher training. I was wanting also to do meditation each day of the year. Now this year, I am going to practice yoga every day of the year. I have been doing that regularly since I came back home to Pointe Noire. In Thailand I did it for only 5 days a week. But now that I continue very day it started getting into routine and I wish I have develop some of the breathing technique. I want to really graduate and be a yoga teacher among many thing else that I wanted to do. I want to proof to myself about postures and meditation and feng shui and all. What will we do next. I will need to prioritise my time. I like to play golf, drumming , dance salsa, play piano. I like musical instruments and I want to develop I these fields. Actually I want to participate in the golf tournament but I am not ready with my hand rather akward from the train of wrong grip before. I want to get a new clubs that will allow me to swing better. Anyway as of now I still will use what I have. SO far this year, at least I have accomplish this thing right at the beginning of the year. I want to lead a group to Thailand. Writing group and yoga and many others. What will we do next. What is Karen and Steve doing this year. I really want them to meet Franklin. What else , I feel closer to Niet & Vicki from the fun we have had together over the past 3 years. Now Franklin is due to leave and ready to go. I realize that I am all over the place and not focus on the yoga practice. O.K. let’s go back the subject at hand. Yoga , o.k. I have been practicing yoga since the age of twelve. I actually did it first from the book and my first teacher was Kru Chod Husbumrue. I went to practice with him accompanying my elder sister Sutthee , who later has introduce me to the meditation group of S.N. Goenka also. Yoga and meditation has always been my core practice and what I wanted to do but I also want to have a family. I want to have children, husband a house with swimming pool and microwave oven. What else did I want when was a little girls later on I have it all but the next thing I want to do is to be a published author and a yoga teacher. Have my own studio and retreat and lead group to visit thai temples and all. At the same time I want to have enough money to run my house hold and to calm down my husband. What I has always been believing in in term of income was from the rent of properties so, contrary to my husband believe, I want to have more properties to get rent income. Our income property we have in Walnut Creek right now is not yet positive cash flow yet. It will be o.k. once we raise the rent and refinance it to be within 2500 $ a month. But there is this property tax and insurance. How can I see the way out about reduce tax liabilities and get the tax back for this two items. My husband believe that there is no way out and he is very different from me about looking at opportunities. What do I need to do now. O.K. One thing is done is that the monthly payment will be more or less the same as the rent income. But that will only pay for the monthly mortgage. SO what do I do to pay for the tax and insurance also. How to do with other thing to set it up in ways that will make thing happen for the better. I am not too keen about what Judy recommend to me. I am not too concern about all this. Here is where the yoga come in. I have been practicing everyday, but not at the same times. During the jet lag time I practice more early in the morning. First thing in the morning. I am sitting at the very nice outdoor secluded area of my house where I really feel great. The breeze from the sea is so good and the humming of the machine noise are very minimum.I will move the table from downstairs up here so I can sit here more and no need to go downstairs where there are too crazy with all the personal. I like my house in Bangkok also because the maid is not always there and I can time the work hours. My nephew is very considerate and capable about many computer thing and I will straighten up my web site as soon as possible. O.k. the new thing to do yoga. Practicing everyday has started to align myself back to have energy to follow many other thing that important to me. The first thing is the gradtitude towards the teachers. I have been trying on my own to practice everyday, to loose weight to follow this and that program. Now I realize that I can not do it alone. Even writing this I am attached to Selene and Clive and also Ajan Nilawan and Ngampan . they are my writing teachers. Practicing yoga with Kru Sunee was the most blessing. She has the method and the attention. The system that took me step by step. I am ready to do more but I still wait to do it with the teachers. My heart is expanded at the voice of Gurumayi through various teachers in the home study course. I am blessed and on the right path. O.K. what do I do now show gratitude and communicate with the teachers. I want to write the article for yoga journal. About teachers appreciation. Will I be able to go back to Thailand within the next few months. It doesn’t look like I can go that quickly. For this month , I want to arrange my web site and get ready for the visit of my children. May be I should go to walk tomorrow. I want to at least have some outdoor time. But I want also to spend my morning hours for meditation and yoga. I will go to practice golf and all the other stuff only in the afternoon. I want to write something to many people. What is the next thing to do about going to Lendrick lodge in Scotland. I want to have the EU passport and it will be great. I have all these things and I am lucky. O.K. what do next. Writers ,the way Selene lead a class would be great. What will be the next thing Iw anted to do. Believing in the thing here. How about Marie Faillnet with her essential oil thing. Will I have the gatherings at my house. My husband will benefit may be. O.K. back to yogs. I know this from writing with Clive. How did I get to this practicing yoga everyday. Going back to the root. Back to my first teacher who ahs passed away but I have got the chance to learn from one of his first students. I saw the other teacher who teach at Philip Wain but she was not very discipline and methodical. Today it rain and that’s why it feel so great out side. I will use this veranda often and one thing I won’t spend too much time with is the TV. Most of my teacher ahs no TV I don’t think we need that at all. What else we can listen to radio or not have to listen to anything at all. Read the paper and not just any paper. I only feel like reading the Herald Tribune only. O.K. how far have I strayed away from the yoga subject. I now have done the regular thing so far that is to practice yoga everyday and meditation everyday. The next step to practice the breathing. I wonder if I could go to any short workshop to do that. I only want to do it with the teachers until I can remember it. But for now I just come out to the veranda and breath deeply each day. Would that be o.k. for now. The technical thing that help me with practicing everyday was the yoga mat. I should have bought two of them. I have the place to practice in Isabelle’s room. When the girls will be there I will also practice. O.K. will this be sufficient for today. Tomorrow I will again do more. How about walking. I need some walking also. How I love it out here . The view of the sea is great and it is quiet. It is an ideal place to be practicing Pranayama. I hope to get some guidance about that later on. When I am ready the right teacher will show up. I want to first loose weight to 150 pounds. It should not be that hard. Now that I count everything. How I wish I could bring everything to Thailand. We need a few stuff for the house. The house is really ready for yoga class. The inside is expansive and not too crowded with stuffs. I like it that we ‘d already have the house blessing. I don’t like the argument of all my sisters. Anyway, it was ready and it was great. I don’t have to do much ceremony. I can do it with the help of my friends.Khun Pim and all the others. Will I send the new year card to Tiew at Muang Ek. She live not too far from me. I told her that I practice yoga and see how much slimmer I will be when she see me. And how about the massage lady. She is very professional.
Yoga journal. I read only one magazine right now. That is yoga journal. As I become more and more involved in yoga and practice it everyday I started to realize and experience the benefit of it. It is obvious that there are a lot of benefit but how to trick ourselves into setting up a routine to do it daily is not easy. I think of Brian Buffini when I was still a real estate broker. He ask us to write a personal note to five people everyday. It is not easy to do everyday but now I am making a pledge to practice yoga for one hour at least everyday. I will email or write to my teacher back home in Thailand. What do I want to accomplish this year. Still not prioritise it yet. One of my goal to do last year was to publish my book and go on the yoga teacher training. I was wanting also to do meditation each day of the year. Now this year, I am going to practice yoga every day of the year. I have been doing that regularly since I came back home to Pointe Noire. In Thailand I did it for only 5 days a week. But now that I continue very day it started getting into routine and I wish I have develop some of the breathing technique. I want to really graduate and be a yoga teacher among many thing else that I wanted to do. I want to proof to myself about postures and meditation and feng shui and all. What will we do next. I will need to prioritise my time. I like to play golf, drumming , dance salsa, play piano. I like musical instruments and I want to develop I these fields. Actually I want to participate in the golf tournament but I am not ready with my hand rather akward from the train of wrong grip before. I want to get a new clubs that will allow me to swing better. Anyway as of now I still will use what I have. SO far this year, at least I have accomplish this thing right at the beginning of the year. I want to lead a group to Thailand. Writing group and yoga and many others. What will we do next. What is Karen and Steve doing this year. I really want them to meet Franklin. What else , I feel closer to Niet & Vicki from the fun we have had together over the past 3 years. Now Franklin is due to leave and ready to go. I realize that I am all over the place and not focus on the yoga practice. O.K. let’s go back the subject at hand. Yoga , o.k. I have been practicing yoga since the age of twelve. I actually did it first from the book and my first teacher was Kru Chod Husbumrue. I went to practice with him accompanying my elder sister Sutthee , who later has introduce me to the meditation group of S.N. Goenka also. Yoga and meditation has always been my core practice and what I wanted to do but I also want to have a family. I want to have children, husband a house with swimming pool and microwave oven. What else did I want when was a little girls later on I have it all but the next thing I want to do is to be a published author and a yoga teacher. Have my own studio and retreat and lead group to visit thai temples and all. At the same time I want to have enough money to run my house hold and to calm down my husband. What I has always been believing in in term of income was from the rent of properties so, contrary to my husband believe, I want to have more properties to get rent income. Our income property we have in Walnut Creek right now is not yet positive cash flow yet. It will be o.k. once we raise the rent and refinance it to be within 2500 $ a month. But there is this property tax and insurance. How can I see the way out about reduce tax liabilities and get the tax back for this two items. My husband believe that there is no way out and he is very different from me about looking at opportunities. What do I need to do now. O.K. One thing is done is that the monthly payment will be more or less the same as the rent income. But that will only pay for the monthly mortgage. SO what do I do to pay for the tax and insurance also. How to do with other thing to set it up in ways that will make thing happen for the better. I am not too keen about what Judy recommend to me. I am not too concern about all this. Here is where the yoga come in. I have been practicing everyday, but not at the same times. During the jet lag time I practice more early in the morning. First thing in the morning. I am sitting at the very nice outdoor secluded area of my house where I really feel great. The breeze from the sea is so good and the humming of the machine noise are very minimum.I will move the table from downstairs up here so I can sit here more and no need to go downstairs where there are too crazy with all the personal. I like my house in Bangkok also because the maid is not always there and I can time the work hours. My nephew is very considerate and capable about many computer thing and I will straighten up my web site as soon as possible. O.k. the new thing to do yoga. Practicing everyday has started to align myself back to have energy to follow many other thing that important to me. The first thing is the gradtitude towards the teachers. I have been trying on my own to practice everyday, to loose weight to follow this and that program. Now I realize that I can not do it alone. Even writing this I am attached to Selene and Clive and also Ajan Nilawan and Ngampan . they are my writing teachers. Practicing yoga with Kru Sunee was the most blessing. She has the method and the attention. The system that took me step by step. I am ready to do more but I still wait to do it with the teachers. My heart is expanded at the voice of Gurumayi through various teachers in the home study course. I am blessed and on the right path. O.K. what do I do now show gratitude and communicate with the teachers. I want to write the article for yoga journal. About teachers appreciation. Will I be able to go back to Thailand within the next few months. It doesn’t look like I can go that quickly. For this month , I want to arrange my web site and get ready for the visit of my children. May be I should go to walk tomorrow. I want to at least have some outdoor time. But I want also to spend my morning hours for meditation and yoga. I will go to practice golf and all the other stuff only in the afternoon. I want to write something to many people. What is the next thing to do about going to Lendrick lodge in Scotland. I want to have the EU passport and it will be great. I have all these things and I am lucky. O.K. what do next. Writers ,the way Selene lead a class would be great. What will be the next thing Iw anted to do. Believing in the thing here. How about Marie Faillnet with her essential oil thing. Will I have the gatherings at my house. My husband will benefit may be. O.K. back to yogs. I know this from writing with Clive. How did I get to this practicing yoga everyday. Going back to the root. Back to my first teacher who ahs passed away but I have got the chance to learn from one of his first students. I saw the other teacher who teach at Philip Wain but she was not very discipline and methodical. Today it rain and that’s why it feel so great out side. I will use this veranda often and one thing I won’t spend too much time with is the TV. Most of my teacher ahs no TV I don’t think we need that at all. What else we can listen to radio or not have to listen to anything at all. Read the paper and not just any paper. I only feel like reading the Herald Tribune only. O.K. how far have I strayed away from the yoga subject. I now have done the regular thing so far that is to practice yoga everyday and meditation everyday. The next step to practice the breathing. I wonder if I could go to any short workshop to do that. I only want to do it with the teachers until I can remember it. But for now I just come out to the veranda and breath deeply each day. Would that be o.k. for now. The technical thing that help me with practicing everyday was the yoga mat. I should have bought two of them. I have the place to practice in Isabelle’s room. When the girls will be there I will also practice. O.K. will this be sufficient for today. Tomorrow I will again do more. How about walking. I need some walking also. How I love it out here . The view of the sea is great and it is quiet. It is an ideal place to be practicing Pranayama. I hope to get some guidance about that later on. When I am ready the right teacher will show up. I want to first loose weight to 150 pounds. It should not be that hard. Now that I count everything. How I wish I could bring everything to Thailand. We need a few stuff for the house. The house is really ready for yoga class. The inside is expansive and not too crowded with stuffs. I like it that we ‘d already have the house blessing. I don’t like the argument of all my sisters. Anyway, it was ready and it was great. I don’t have to do much ceremony. I can do it with the help of my friends.Khun Pim and all the others. Will I send the new year card to Tiew at Muang Ek. She live not too far from me. I told her that I practice yoga and see how much slimmer I will be when she see me. And how about the massage lady. She is very professional.
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Pointe Noire , Congo
Yoga journal. I read only one magazine right now. That is yoga journal. As I become more and more involved in yoga and practice it everyday I started to realize and experience the benefit of it. It is obvious that there are a lot of benefit but how to trick ourselves into setting up a routine to do it daily is not easy. I think of Brian Buffini when I was still a real estate broker. He ask us to write a personal note to five people everyday. It is not easy to do everyday but now I am making a pledge to practice yoga for one hour at least everyday. I will email or write to my teacher back home in Thailand. What do I want to accomplish this year. Still not prioritise it yet. One of my goal to do last year was to publish my book and go on the yoga teacher training. I was wanting also to do meditation each day of the year. Now this year, I am going to practice yoga every day of the year. I have been doing that regularly since I came back home to Pointe Noire. In Thailand I did it for only 5 days a week. But now that I continue very day it started getting into routine and I wish I have develop some of the breathing technique. I want to really graduate and be a yoga teacher among many thing else that I wanted to do. I want to proof to myself about postures and meditation and feng shui and all. What will we do next. I will need to prioritise my time. I like to play golf, drumming , dance salsa, play piano. I like musical instruments and I want to develop I these fields. Actually I want to participate in the golf tournament but I am not ready with my hand rather akward from the train of wrong grip before. I want to get a new clubs that will allow me to swing better. Anyway as of now I still will use what I have. SO far this year, at least I have accomplish this thing right at the beginning of the year. I want to lead a group to Thailand. Writing group and yoga and many others. What will we do next. What is Karen and Steve doing this year. I really want them to meet Franklin. What else , I feel closer to Niet & Vicki from the fun we have had together over the past 3 years. Now Franklin is due to leave and ready to go. I realize that I am all over the place and not focus on the yoga practice. O.K. let’s go back the subject at hand. Yoga , o.k. I have been practicing yoga since the age of twelve. I actually did it first from the book and my first teacher was Kru Chod Husbumrue. I went to practice with him accompanying my elder sister Sutthee , who later has introduce me to the meditation group of S.N. Goenka also. Yoga and meditation has always been my core practice and what I wanted to do but I also want to have a family. I want to have children, husband a house with swimming pool and microwave oven. What else did I want when was a little girls later on I have it all but the next thing I want to do is to be a published author and a yoga teacher. Have my own studio and retreat and lead group to visit thai temples and all. At the same time I want to have enough money to run my house hold and to calm down my husband. What I has always been believing in in term of income was from the rent of properties so, contrary to my husband believe, I want to have more properties to get rent income. Our income property we have in Walnut Creek right now is not yet positive cash flow yet. It will be o.k. once we raise the rent and refinance it to be within 2500 $ a month. But there is this property tax and insurance. How can I see the way out about reduce tax liabilities and get the tax back for this two items. My husband believe that there is no way out and he is very different from me about looking at opportunities. What do I need to do now. O.K. One thing is done is that the monthly payment will be more or less the same as the rent income. But that will only pay for the monthly mortgage. SO what do I do to pay for the tax and insurance also. How to do with other thing to set it up in ways that will make thing happen for the better. I am not too keen about what Judy recommend to me. I am not too concern about all this. Here is where the yoga come in. I have been practicing everyday, but not at the same times. During the jet lag time I practice more early in the morning. First thing in the morning. I am sitting at the very nice outdoor secluded area of my house where I really feel great. The breeze from the sea is so good and the humming of the machine noise are very minimum.I will move the table from downstairs up here so I can sit here more and no need to go downstairs where there are too crazy with all the personal. I like my house in Bangkok also because the maid is not always there and I can time the work hours. My nephew is very considerate and capable about many computer thing and I will straighten up my web site as soon as possible. O.k. the new thing to do yoga. Practicing everyday has started to align myself back to have energy to follow many other thing that important to me. The first thing is the gradtitude towards the teachers. I have been trying on my own to practice everyday, to loose weight to follow this and that program. Now I realize that I can not do it alone. Even writing this I am attached to Selene and Clive and also Ajan Nilawan and Ngampan . they are my writing teachers. Practicing yoga with Kru Sunee was the most blessing. She has the method and the attention. The system that took me step by step. I am ready to do more but I still wait to do it with the teachers. My heart is expanded at the voice of Gurumayi through various teachers in the home study course. I am blessed and on the right path. O.K. what do I do now show gratitude and communicate with the teachers. I want to write the article for yoga journal. About teachers appreciation. Will I be able to go back to Thailand within the next few months. It doesn’t look like I can go that quickly. For this month , I want to arrange my web site and get ready for the visit of my children. May be I should go to walk tomorrow. I want to at least have some outdoor time. But I want also to spend my morning hours for meditation and yoga. I will go to practice golf and all the other stuff only in the afternoon. I want to write something to many people. What is the next thing to do about going to Lendrick lodge in Scotland. I want to have the EU passport and it will be great. I have all these things and I am lucky. O.K. what do next. Writers ,the way Selene lead a class would be great. What will be the next thing Iw anted to do. Believing in the thing here. How about Marie Faillnet with her essential oil thing. Will I have the gatherings at my house. My husband will benefit may be. O.K. back to yogs. I know this from writing with Clive. How did I get to this practicing yoga everyday. Going back to the root. Back to my first teacher who ahs passed away but I have got the chance to learn from one of his first students. I saw the other teacher who teach at Philip Wain but she was not very discipline and methodical. Today it rain and that’s why it feel so great out side. I will use this veranda often and one thing I won’t spend too much time with is the TV. Most of my teacher ahs no TV I don’t think we need that at all. What else we can listen to radio or not have to listen to anything at all. Read the paper and not just any paper. I only feel like reading the Herald Tribune only. O.K. how far have I strayed away from the yoga subject. I now have done the regular thing so far that is to practice yoga everyday and meditation everyday. The next step to practice the breathing. I wonder if I could go to any short workshop to do that. I only want to do it with the teachers until I can remember it. But for now I just come out to the veranda and breath deeply each day. Would that be o.k. for now. The technical thing that help me with practicing everyday was the yoga mat. I should have bought two of them. I have the place to practice in Isabelle’s room. When the girls will be there I will also practice. O.K. will this be sufficient for today. Tomorrow I will again do more. How about walking. I need some walking also. How I love it out here . The view of the sea is great and it is quiet. It is an ideal place to be practicing Pranayama. I hope to get some guidance about that later on. When I am ready the right teacher will show up. I want to first loose weight to 150 pounds. It should not be that hard. Now that I count everything. How I wish I could bring everything to Thailand. We need a few stuff for the house. The house is really ready for yoga class. The inside is expansive and not too crowded with stuffs. I like it that we ‘d already have the house blessing. I don’t like the argument of all my sisters. Anyway, it was ready and it was great. I don’t have to do much ceremony. I can do it with the help of my friends.Khun Pim and all the others. Will I send the new year card to Tiew at Muang Ek. She live not too far from me. I told her that I practice yoga and see how much slimmer I will be when she see me. And how about the massage lady. She is very professional.
Yoga journal. I read only one magazine right now. That is yoga journal. As I become more and more involved in yoga and practice it everyday I started to realize and experience the benefit of it. It is obvious that there are a lot of benefit but how to trick ourselves into setting up a routine to do it daily is not easy. I think of Brian Buffini when I was still a real estate broker. He ask us to write a personal note to five people everyday. It is not easy to do everyday but now I am making a pledge to practice yoga for one hour at least everyday. I will email or write to my teacher back home in Thailand. What do I want to accomplish this year. Still not prioritise it yet. One of my goal to do last year was to publish my book and go on the yoga teacher training. I was wanting also to do meditation each day of the year. Now this year, I am going to practice yoga every day of the year. I have been doing that regularly since I came back home to Pointe Noire. In Thailand I did it for only 5 days a week. But now that I continue very day it started getting into routine and I wish I have develop some of the breathing technique. I want to really graduate and be a yoga teacher among many thing else that I wanted to do. I want to proof to myself about postures and meditation and feng shui and all. What will we do next. I will need to prioritise my time. I like to play golf, drumming , dance salsa, play piano. I like musical instruments and I want to develop I these fields. Actually I want to participate in the golf tournament but I am not ready with my hand rather akward from the train of wrong grip before. I want to get a new clubs that will allow me to swing better. Anyway as of now I still will use what I have. SO far this year, at least I have accomplish this thing right at the beginning of the year. I want to lead a group to Thailand. Writing group and yoga and many others. What will we do next. What is Karen and Steve doing this year. I really want them to meet Franklin. What else , I feel closer to Niet & Vicki from the fun we have had together over the past 3 years. Now Franklin is due to leave and ready to go. I realize that I am all over the place and not focus on the yoga practice. O.K. let’s go back the subject at hand. Yoga , o.k. I have been practicing yoga since the age of twelve. I actually did it first from the book and my first teacher was Kru Chod Husbumrue. I went to practice with him accompanying my elder sister Sutthee , who later has introduce me to the meditation group of S.N. Goenka also. Yoga and meditation has always been my core practice and what I wanted to do but I also want to have a family. I want to have children, husband a house with swimming pool and microwave oven. What else did I want when was a little girls later on I have it all but the next thing I want to do is to be a published author and a yoga teacher. Have my own studio and retreat and lead group to visit thai temples and all. At the same time I want to have enough money to run my house hold and to calm down my husband. What I has always been believing in in term of income was from the rent of properties so, contrary to my husband believe, I want to have more properties to get rent income. Our income property we have in Walnut Creek right now is not yet positive cash flow yet. It will be o.k. once we raise the rent and refinance it to be within 2500 $ a month. But there is this property tax and insurance. How can I see the way out about reduce tax liabilities and get the tax back for this two items. My husband believe that there is no way out and he is very different from me about looking at opportunities. What do I need to do now. O.K. One thing is done is that the monthly payment will be more or less the same as the rent income. But that will only pay for the monthly mortgage. SO what do I do to pay for the tax and insurance also. How to do with other thing to set it up in ways that will make thing happen for the better. I am not too keen about what Judy recommend to me. I am not too concern about all this. Here is where the yoga come in. I have been practicing everyday, but not at the same times. During the jet lag time I practice more early in the morning. First thing in the morning. I am sitting at the very nice outdoor secluded area of my house where I really feel great. The breeze from the sea is so good and the humming of the machine noise are very minimum.I will move the table from downstairs up here so I can sit here more and no need to go downstairs where there are too crazy with all the personal. I like my house in Bangkok also because the maid is not always there and I can time the work hours. My nephew is very considerate and capable about many computer thing and I will straighten up my web site as soon as possible. O.k. the new thing to do yoga. Practicing everyday has started to align myself back to have energy to follow many other thing that important to me. The first thing is the gradtitude towards the teachers. I have been trying on my own to practice everyday, to loose weight to follow this and that program. Now I realize that I can not do it alone. Even writing this I am attached to Selene and Clive and also Ajan Nilawan and Ngampan . they are my writing teachers. Practicing yoga with Kru Sunee was the most blessing. She has the method and the attention. The system that took me step by step. I am ready to do more but I still wait to do it with the teachers. My heart is expanded at the voice of Gurumayi through various teachers in the home study course. I am blessed and on the right path. O.K. what do I do now show gratitude and communicate with the teachers. I want to write the article for yoga journal. About teachers appreciation. Will I be able to go back to Thailand within the next few months. It doesn’t look like I can go that quickly. For this month , I want to arrange my web site and get ready for the visit of my children. May be I should go to walk tomorrow. I want to at least have some outdoor time. But I want also to spend my morning hours for meditation and yoga. I will go to practice golf and all the other stuff only in the afternoon. I want to write something to many people. What is the next thing to do about going to Lendrick lodge in Scotland. I want to have the EU passport and it will be great. I have all these things and I am lucky. O.K. what do next. Writers ,the way Selene lead a class would be great. What will be the next thing Iw anted to do. Believing in the thing here. How about Marie Faillnet with her essential oil thing. Will I have the gatherings at my house. My husband will benefit may be. O.K. back to yogs. I know this from writing with Clive. How did I get to this practicing yoga everyday. Going back to the root. Back to my first teacher who ahs passed away but I have got the chance to learn from one of his first students. I saw the other teacher who teach at Philip Wain but she was not very discipline and methodical. Today it rain and that’s why it feel so great out side. I will use this veranda often and one thing I won’t spend too much time with is the TV. Most of my teacher ahs no TV I don’t think we need that at all. What else we can listen to radio or not have to listen to anything at all. Read the paper and not just any paper. I only feel like reading the Herald Tribune only. O.K. how far have I strayed away from the yoga subject. I now have done the regular thing so far that is to practice yoga everyday and meditation everyday. The next step to practice the breathing. I wonder if I could go to any short workshop to do that. I only want to do it with the teachers until I can remember it. But for now I just come out to the veranda and breath deeply each day. Would that be o.k. for now. The technical thing that help me with practicing everyday was the yoga mat. I should have bought two of them. I have the place to practice in Isabelle’s room. When the girls will be there I will also practice. O.K. will this be sufficient for today. Tomorrow I will again do more. How about walking. I need some walking also. How I love it out here . The view of the sea is great and it is quiet. It is an ideal place to be practicing Pranayama. I hope to get some guidance about that later on. When I am ready the right teacher will show up. I want to first loose weight to 150 pounds. It should not be that hard. Now that I count everything. How I wish I could bring everything to Thailand. We need a few stuff for the house. The house is really ready for yoga class. The inside is expansive and not too crowded with stuffs. I like it that we ‘d already have the house blessing. I don’t like the argument of all my sisters. Anyway, it was ready and it was great. I don’t have to do much ceremony. I can do it with the help of my friends.Khun Pim and all the others. Will I send the new year card to Tiew at Muang Ek. She live not too far from me. I told her that I practice yoga and see how much slimmer I will be when she see me. And how about the massage lady. She is very professional.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
25 Jan07 in Pointe Noire home
O.k. I have read some of my writing previously and now I am quite aware of my progress. For example the yoga. I have already established my daily practice for both yoga and meditation and I really feel great about it. I also have the sharper intuition and feel so relaxed about whatever happen. How about going to Kenya with Jaqueline. I really would like to go with her. This is great to be back in my own office again. When I go to Thailand next time , I will give this computer to the monk at Pak Chong. How to do this and when will I go again to Thailand. I know for sure that now we are going stay here for one more year and that we wanted to go to Kenya this year. That is my desire and I want to publish my book or some article in the magazine. What to do now. I can ask Selene or some one to look at my writing. Getting to yoga and coming home. Yes doing yoga practicing yoga for me is like coming home. O.k. what else do I need to give away again now. My husband is not yet convinced that he need some relaxation and some wind down. He is very tired and he work too hard. Need to go for a walk or something right now. If he sense the pressure of both work and being away from home. Yes , I like going home. Look at my sister , her husband call every 2-3 hours to make sure how she is. I have the very nice thing to do in Pak Chong and in Thailand. If he come to Thailand and see some scenery ,it will be great. Fulvia said that it was gloomy for Franklin when was here alone for so many months. I left the beginning of November and come back in January so almost 3 months of absence. I was in Thailand ,the whole month of December and half of January and November. It was the very difficult time for Franklin. I wonder what he did these days. I can definitely call Grazialla again and go with Jaqueline. How about going with Jaqueline. I really feel complete and o.k. with being in Africa. I feel enough for here. What will Fulvia think , I will not be here in 2008 for sure but if we will still be here in the year end of 2007 we will stay in Africa and may be go to Kenya. Yes why not. But it will be better to go only for Franklin and me. May be that might be better. We take vacation both of us Franklin and me only no children and we go sight seeing in Scotland. Franklin use to be in U.K. before and he might like to go back again to see old friends. O.K. I have already eliminate the things that I am sure we will not need. There will still be a lot of things in this room I need to eliminate. Going to the nuns next week we can do a lot of charity. I can go to Tum boon a lot . I am too tired right now and will go around this room trying to throw away or space clear the place. The digital camera can be given away and the normal camera also in the suitcase we will not use it any more. Why keep it for so long. Just like the nourriture pourri in the fridge. O.k. I will give away now and we will be lighter. I remember the house in Bangkok after we gave away some there are a lot more place for new things in our live. Why not do that , I already have the intention. O.K. do it now. Think about the caddy whom I gave the out dated beverage and sauce he told me that it was not good and make me feel guilty. What about the good one. I never take a look. What have I done. I did not look at the date or just give away what can not be used. O.K. still a lot of thing to pack and give away. There are so much in this house. O.K. what do I need to do. I have given away some of the English book to library and will still give away a few more stuff to people who need to use it. O.K. this computer will definitely be in Thailand next time I go. Will Franklin go to Thailand. I love staying here alone right now. No servant no body disturb my serenity. May be I should do yoga one more time. I love doing yoga each day for one hour. I have done so much already the writing and catching up with people. I will again look around and throw away some more stuff.
Today is already 11 March 2007 . We are already the 3rd month of the year. My yoga practice is still fairly regular and my meditation as well. I am going to transfer this journal to my blog in the other HP laptop. It will be quite a challenge because the Hp lap does not have the disket any more. I will need to adapt the other way. I am glad to have a blog though. How about the key. May be I can use the key to do this. O.K. what an advance technology. I want to transfer everything into the HP laptop. My husband just came for tax signature great. He has one more thing less to worry about this year. This year will be the year we file our tax on time or even before it due. We are in March and I have already established my blog and will try to learn how to put picture on it. This computer will soon be with Luang Por at Pak Chong. I have been trying to call Rangrong but no reply. May be next week I can ask Manuela about taking this file to the blog in HP laptop and then I will see next. If I get everything in one computer ,it will be easier for me to work. Now I use the HP laptop to the Siddhayoga meditation CD. That’s remind me that the CD is still in the HP. How long ahd I have this Dell. Since I was with Coldwell banker. I have retired from real estate sales for more than 3 years now.
O.K. tax done, blog done and I just do one editing for the new blog. What now. May be I can try to put this in the key and transfer it to the HP by myself. Put everything in one place. This week end ,I organized the deep freezer in the kitchen. Both the big and small freezer. Also arrange the new fridge and there are still to throw away and my HP laptop has been put to current life style. I only have my current picture taken within the year.
Unlike the web site where my picture is still from the real estate sales days.
We almost finished our time here in Congo. It has been great .The discoveries an dlife style and traveling and it was greta for my kids. I feel more closer to them and they seem to understand my point of view more and know where I come from. They mature a lot and Isabelle just told me today that she made it to the tennis varsity team. Next week she will go for tournament in U.K. It was great. Will we be back for a long time in Danville. Nothing is being done yet fro Valerie. May be she can do some traveling with Athenian.Can she go to Africa with Isabelle for community service. It might be difficult.I want to keep in contact with Mr Damico while he is in South Africa. Hopefully , the kids can visit him during vacation next year.
This month I will finalise the trip for the office to got o Lesio Luna in Brazzaville area. I will do all the booking , coordinating and tickets arrangment. After that I should be able to finalise also the Kenya trip and the where about of the kids this summer. Still not sure about where Benjamin will end up for summer job. The rest of the eyar traveling will be quite something this year as I really hope to go back to Thailand to finish my yoga teacher training and Franklin want to put Picnic in the market. I prefer to let it stay like that with increase rent fro tenant. Hopefully the guy tenant in 711 moved in already and we started to collect rent this month. How about the increase of 713. Hope Cathy get that now or if the tenant move out she can advertise rent increase. How about make that unit into two bed rooms unit or even three. It can be done quite easily, I think. I gather we will live there for a while and sell it. If we sell our main house in Crow Canyon . That is the sure way to have profit. As kids leave we don’t need a big place. Benjamin will start this Fall to rent a place by himself in Arcata. I even think we should buy something for him to manage. The girls will nto be in California. Look like they have their own ideas about their college education. They are not the superficial type of Californian style for sure. We will see what and where Isabelle will go for college this Fall. Her choices has opened up when we find out that she eligible for education in the EU countries with her dad’s heritage and her EU passport. It was great.
O.k. I have read some of my writing previously and now I am quite aware of my progress. For example the yoga. I have already established my daily practice for both yoga and meditation and I really feel great about it. I also have the sharper intuition and feel so relaxed about whatever happen. How about going to Kenya with Jaqueline. I really would like to go with her. This is great to be back in my own office again. When I go to Thailand next time , I will give this computer to the monk at Pak Chong. How to do this and when will I go again to Thailand. I know for sure that now we are going stay here for one more year and that we wanted to go to Kenya this year. That is my desire and I want to publish my book or some article in the magazine. What to do now. I can ask Selene or some one to look at my writing. Getting to yoga and coming home. Yes doing yoga practicing yoga for me is like coming home. O.k. what else do I need to give away again now. My husband is not yet convinced that he need some relaxation and some wind down. He is very tired and he work too hard. Need to go for a walk or something right now. If he sense the pressure of both work and being away from home. Yes , I like going home. Look at my sister , her husband call every 2-3 hours to make sure how she is. I have the very nice thing to do in Pak Chong and in Thailand. If he come to Thailand and see some scenery ,it will be great. Fulvia said that it was gloomy for Franklin when was here alone for so many months. I left the beginning of November and come back in January so almost 3 months of absence. I was in Thailand ,the whole month of December and half of January and November. It was the very difficult time for Franklin. I wonder what he did these days. I can definitely call Grazialla again and go with Jaqueline. How about going with Jaqueline. I really feel complete and o.k. with being in Africa. I feel enough for here. What will Fulvia think , I will not be here in 2008 for sure but if we will still be here in the year end of 2007 we will stay in Africa and may be go to Kenya. Yes why not. But it will be better to go only for Franklin and me. May be that might be better. We take vacation both of us Franklin and me only no children and we go sight seeing in Scotland. Franklin use to be in U.K. before and he might like to go back again to see old friends. O.K. I have already eliminate the things that I am sure we will not need. There will still be a lot of things in this room I need to eliminate. Going to the nuns next week we can do a lot of charity. I can go to Tum boon a lot . I am too tired right now and will go around this room trying to throw away or space clear the place. The digital camera can be given away and the normal camera also in the suitcase we will not use it any more. Why keep it for so long. Just like the nourriture pourri in the fridge. O.k. I will give away now and we will be lighter. I remember the house in Bangkok after we gave away some there are a lot more place for new things in our live. Why not do that , I already have the intention. O.K. do it now. Think about the caddy whom I gave the out dated beverage and sauce he told me that it was not good and make me feel guilty. What about the good one. I never take a look. What have I done. I did not look at the date or just give away what can not be used. O.K. still a lot of thing to pack and give away. There are so much in this house. O.K. what do I need to do. I have given away some of the English book to library and will still give away a few more stuff to people who need to use it. O.K. this computer will definitely be in Thailand next time I go. Will Franklin go to Thailand. I love staying here alone right now. No servant no body disturb my serenity. May be I should do yoga one more time. I love doing yoga each day for one hour. I have done so much already the writing and catching up with people. I will again look around and throw away some more stuff.
Today is already 11 March 2007 . We are already the 3rd month of the year. My yoga practice is still fairly regular and my meditation as well. I am going to transfer this journal to my blog in the other HP laptop. It will be quite a challenge because the Hp lap does not have the disket any more. I will need to adapt the other way. I am glad to have a blog though. How about the key. May be I can use the key to do this. O.K. what an advance technology. I want to transfer everything into the HP laptop. My husband just came for tax signature great. He has one more thing less to worry about this year. This year will be the year we file our tax on time or even before it due. We are in March and I have already established my blog and will try to learn how to put picture on it. This computer will soon be with Luang Por at Pak Chong. I have been trying to call Rangrong but no reply. May be next week I can ask Manuela about taking this file to the blog in HP laptop and then I will see next. If I get everything in one computer ,it will be easier for me to work. Now I use the HP laptop to the Siddhayoga meditation CD. That’s remind me that the CD is still in the HP. How long ahd I have this Dell. Since I was with Coldwell banker. I have retired from real estate sales for more than 3 years now.
O.K. tax done, blog done and I just do one editing for the new blog. What now. May be I can try to put this in the key and transfer it to the HP by myself. Put everything in one place. This week end ,I organized the deep freezer in the kitchen. Both the big and small freezer. Also arrange the new fridge and there are still to throw away and my HP laptop has been put to current life style. I only have my current picture taken within the year.
Unlike the web site where my picture is still from the real estate sales days.
We almost finished our time here in Congo. It has been great .The discoveries an dlife style and traveling and it was greta for my kids. I feel more closer to them and they seem to understand my point of view more and know where I come from. They mature a lot and Isabelle just told me today that she made it to the tennis varsity team. Next week she will go for tournament in U.K. It was great. Will we be back for a long time in Danville. Nothing is being done yet fro Valerie. May be she can do some traveling with Athenian.Can she go to Africa with Isabelle for community service. It might be difficult.I want to keep in contact with Mr Damico while he is in South Africa. Hopefully , the kids can visit him during vacation next year.
This month I will finalise the trip for the office to got o Lesio Luna in Brazzaville area. I will do all the booking , coordinating and tickets arrangment. After that I should be able to finalise also the Kenya trip and the where about of the kids this summer. Still not sure about where Benjamin will end up for summer job. The rest of the eyar traveling will be quite something this year as I really hope to go back to Thailand to finish my yoga teacher training and Franklin want to put Picnic in the market. I prefer to let it stay like that with increase rent fro tenant. Hopefully the guy tenant in 711 moved in already and we started to collect rent this month. How about the increase of 713. Hope Cathy get that now or if the tenant move out she can advertise rent increase. How about make that unit into two bed rooms unit or even three. It can be done quite easily, I think. I gather we will live there for a while and sell it. If we sell our main house in Crow Canyon . That is the sure way to have profit. As kids leave we don’t need a big place. Benjamin will start this Fall to rent a place by himself in Arcata. I even think we should buy something for him to manage. The girls will nto be in California. Look like they have their own ideas about their college education. They are not the superficial type of Californian style for sure. We will see what and where Isabelle will go for college this Fall. Her choices has opened up when we find out that she eligible for education in the EU countries with her dad’s heritage and her EU passport. It was great.
Friday, December 1, 2006
1 Dec
It is almost 8 am and I am sitting in my living room in the gardenhome house in Bangkok. I was lucky yesterday I got the cleaning lady that look great and work well plus she is not live in. She can cook but not that great (she said) anyway anything is better than the one I have last time. She is cooking something for me today. I will see with Kluay what she want to do. I just got in contact with Khun Pim and talk to her about my house blessing ceremony. This is so great and I really would like my friend from Chiang Mai to come too. How about I call Deb from Chiang Mai. I am rather confused with all this thing about my family. How about calling Kluay right now and get thing straighten up. Today Ajan Suchart will come to see Khun Pim and I want to get the place ready for leang Phra. May be I could call the family right now to know when they can come. I can also call Tung. May be it is better to do now as I will invite her also. What else ,I need to call Pi Kowit and Pi Yai and all the others. Who else I want to call. I really would like to have the piano in this house. Will see about that later. It is so funny that I have the DHL sent to me today. I don’t have the caller ID but last night I got to talk with Sinead. My maid is making vegetarian soup for me right now. What else do I want to do. Did my sister call me ? Today , I only wanted to do very minimum. Who lease I wanted to see P Kowit /Jan and Rosie and all the others. What does Pi Kowit doing right now. He still teach at Kasetsart. The maid is o.k. I think this time I will buy the ironing board the good one so that ironing can be somehwhere else or can fold the board away. Nice to be talking to Khun Pim. At least
I talk correctly now. I got DHL today and what else do I need to do with the box. I can send the file to Amanita later. What do I need right now. I will go see Khun Pim on Monday and they are going to be something different. I can go to the temple not far from our house. May be should call Kluay now first before she come out of the house. I am too late now she is almost at my house. I am thinking of my chocolate. I want to bring one box to Khun Pim’s house. I am blessed by being surrounded by all the good friends. What do I do later. I can call to Khun Pim and Khun Somboon. When will they pick up the phone. I am looking forward to seeing Sinead next Wednesday. What else do I do. This year Khun Pim will be going to Bay area also. I will go with her. I am now very simple and don’t want to be disturb too easily by all the elements. So what do the people do for my garden ,I need to cure the disease first. I want to do the tum boon baan and get people to help bless the house I should do that often. But the most important is to have monk coming to bless the house. My sister is already there. May be I can turn of the air condition. It is very loud. I don’t know why and how it could be this loud. Having S&P catering for me should be great. That is what I need to do. Off course when Kluay came I cannot continue with my journal writing. I accomplished so much today. Got to talk with Khun Pim, Franklin and got to check the voice mail as well as deleted what I don’t want. What else do I need to do also. Got to have the think for orchid and the tree outside, the frangipagna. Anyway, today I need to finish with the book and send the draft to Amanita. I chat with Kluay today about Pi Pao. She is very nice but I can not understand the way P’Aew cannot let go of so many stuff. Why do I ave to be so irritated. She can not throw away anything and her house is full of junk. She is torn between the situation that her neighbour is going to build 8 stories condo. It will be so chaos for her but as she is so attached to the old and afraid of change and can nor let go she said the opposite. She said she give away so many thing already but my sister said she still ahs so much stuffs in her house. It is so interesting to chat with Kluay to know about how she feel uncomfortable with P’Aew ways of saying sarcastic remark. It deeply satisfy her may be without knowing. Letting go is difficult for her and she will never leave the house that she built with her husband who’d already left her. Actually her life terribly need updated. But she refuse to go on. My sister told me that she still keep the air conditioning unit in her study even the out side compressor is gone. Contrary to my youngest sister she throw big stuff away everyday. I love to write and I have been working hard raising my family. I am looking at the Asian game opening ceremony. It really time for Asia and I really want to go on with the flow. As my sister She is relived and satisfy after saying something sarcastic to some on . This is very subtle and she might not know it but it reflect what going on in the inside is the same as what’s going on in the outside. The inside is a chaos and not letting go. Her house is full of stuff and old memory that she keep not because she love the object but because she can not let them go. So it mean she still hanging on to the past to the old thing. Not letting go of the old mean no opportunity for welcoming the new. What do I do to help her and what effect this made on me. I think may be Pa Jan is the same. She also like not to change and want to be at the same place. She can not move. But she has more advantage because she live a little bit far from the building site. Pi Aew nees to work on herself. I am happy and can notice this unhealthy habit and hoarding tendency. T want to continue to grow meaning I need to work more on myself what else do I do. I am glad I let go and expand. I want to try new thing ,go to new placeand do new things . meet new people. If we stand still we will shrink. Now I can understand why I was so bored to be with P ‘Aew. But she was nice and her life was colourful up till she retired. Why do I need to think of her so much myself. How about continue to work on myself. Tomorrow, I will still go dance and play golf and continue and have no fear and no imagination about this or that. Glad to do this today and I still need to do thing with childlike freshness. May be because I have young children and three of them I need to carry on and keep up with the time. Glad to have this realization.
I talk correctly now. I got DHL today and what else do I need to do with the box. I can send the file to Amanita later. What do I need right now. I will go see Khun Pim on Monday and they are going to be something different. I can go to the temple not far from our house. May be should call Kluay now first before she come out of the house. I am too late now she is almost at my house. I am thinking of my chocolate. I want to bring one box to Khun Pim’s house. I am blessed by being surrounded by all the good friends. What do I do later. I can call to Khun Pim and Khun Somboon. When will they pick up the phone. I am looking forward to seeing Sinead next Wednesday. What else do I do. This year Khun Pim will be going to Bay area also. I will go with her. I am now very simple and don’t want to be disturb too easily by all the elements. So what do the people do for my garden ,I need to cure the disease first. I want to do the tum boon baan and get people to help bless the house I should do that often. But the most important is to have monk coming to bless the house. My sister is already there. May be I can turn of the air condition. It is very loud. I don’t know why and how it could be this loud. Having S&P catering for me should be great. That is what I need to do. Off course when Kluay came I cannot continue with my journal writing. I accomplished so much today. Got to talk with Khun Pim, Franklin and got to check the voice mail as well as deleted what I don’t want. What else do I need to do also. Got to have the think for orchid and the tree outside, the frangipagna. Anyway, today I need to finish with the book and send the draft to Amanita. I chat with Kluay today about Pi Pao. She is very nice but I can not understand the way P’Aew cannot let go of so many stuff. Why do I ave to be so irritated. She can not throw away anything and her house is full of junk. She is torn between the situation that her neighbour is going to build 8 stories condo. It will be so chaos for her but as she is so attached to the old and afraid of change and can nor let go she said the opposite. She said she give away so many thing already but my sister said she still ahs so much stuffs in her house. It is so interesting to chat with Kluay to know about how she feel uncomfortable with P’Aew ways of saying sarcastic remark. It deeply satisfy her may be without knowing. Letting go is difficult for her and she will never leave the house that she built with her husband who’d already left her. Actually her life terribly need updated. But she refuse to go on. My sister told me that she still keep the air conditioning unit in her study even the out side compressor is gone. Contrary to my youngest sister she throw big stuff away everyday. I love to write and I have been working hard raising my family. I am looking at the Asian game opening ceremony. It really time for Asia and I really want to go on with the flow. As my sister She is relived and satisfy after saying something sarcastic to some on . This is very subtle and she might not know it but it reflect what going on in the inside is the same as what’s going on in the outside. The inside is a chaos and not letting go. Her house is full of stuff and old memory that she keep not because she love the object but because she can not let them go. So it mean she still hanging on to the past to the old thing. Not letting go of the old mean no opportunity for welcoming the new. What do I do to help her and what effect this made on me. I think may be Pa Jan is the same. She also like not to change and want to be at the same place. She can not move. But she has more advantage because she live a little bit far from the building site. Pi Aew nees to work on herself. I am happy and can notice this unhealthy habit and hoarding tendency. T want to continue to grow meaning I need to work more on myself what else do I do. I am glad I let go and expand. I want to try new thing ,go to new placeand do new things . meet new people. If we stand still we will shrink. Now I can understand why I was so bored to be with P ‘Aew. But she was nice and her life was colourful up till she retired. Why do I need to think of her so much myself. How about continue to work on myself. Tomorrow, I will still go dance and play golf and continue and have no fear and no imagination about this or that. Glad to do this today and I still need to do thing with childlike freshness. May be because I have young children and three of them I need to carry on and keep up with the time. Glad to have this realization.
Monday, November 27, 2006
27 Nov
This is almost the end of my time in Europe. I went to Lugano, Geneva /Leysin and Aigle as well as Brussels and Paris. Last night, I talked so long with Stephanie in Avaranche and I feel sad about er situation. Her husband has cancer in the throat and she is very worry. She live on the threshold of hope and they already gone many time to Lourdes and they have already baptized. I am glad to talke to her for a long time and would like to cheer her up a little. I went to look at the hotel in town today and found some good ones on the rue de l’ ancienne comedie. I also has something at home for the napkin of my children. It will be great if all of them could use the clothe napkin with napkin ring in their name. I saw the food that all the children will like for sure and I will go visit Stephanie next time. Go to St Malo and visit the north region of France. I can even go with Valerie when we have a short holidays again. This time we saw Bob and I can’t imagine what to do I want to pray for him and for Monique. I hear some news about Anne Rans. She has a new boy friend for a year now and they live now in Anvers. I did not see Caroline yet but would like to buy a thai costume for the kids. Elise, Ana and Josephine. The girl of Florence. I will buy some ongle for all of them also. They will all like it for sure. Althought I am not sure for an 8 years old girl how it will look like. I feel more interesting to walk in Paris and we can stay in one of the hotel. Now I will pack and check out and will go back to the terminal. Now I know how to get to Novotel and how to go into Paris. I’d rather right away from Roissy CDG take the bus to station and take the RER to Notre dame and get a place in town so that I could go out in the evening. The kids will also like it more too. There are 20 something cinemas. And the restaurant in the area are so good. We go to Brussels all the time, I would like to change to Paris next time. Also we can get to see The Garigue also in the area. Being in Paris one will not be too tired. Thee is always things to do. I can invite the mother of Donald also.
SO there are so much to do in Paris. What will I do now in Thailand. And what to do about the house I Walnut Creek. There are not any offer. I wan to go to Korat and go to Lak Muang oracle again. I want to ask divinity what will become of my book and my imcome property as well as my husband’s next move. I am so tired now and look forward to a rest and an alone time in Bangkok just stay for a few days without any contact from outside. What happen now with my family. I want to go for vacation down south and in Chiang Mai. I go toChiang Mai with my youngest daughter twice already. What will I do next. Burma and India and Shanghai. I really want to go with my husband experience Tibet and many other places. Tours are cheap in Thailand. O.K. There are so much in out look that I need to again input so not to forget about picking up the kids from the air port and how about Franklin, He did not want to travel to Thailand to stay for a short time. Will he see the family? I think Ben can work in Leysin this summer for camp counselor. It will be cool for him and we can stay in Europe for a little bit but what about all the other kids they want to go back to do the driving test. Isabelle will be able to do it automatically as she will be already 18 years old in February 2007. But she will go to Africa for community service first. It was so great to see the movie and the news last night. There things that touch people at different time.
O.k. Valerie would like to go in a different school next year. What will we do next ? I want to got o the air port so in the lounge I can read Paris match the latest issue. It was great to go see Henri and talked to Stephanie for a long time last night. And I bought something for sea food scraping ,I hope it can be taken with me to Thailand.Hope they will not freak out at airport and have me check it down the suitcase place. I need another lock for the small suitcase too.
SO there are so much to do in Paris. What will I do now in Thailand. And what to do about the house I Walnut Creek. There are not any offer. I wan to go to Korat and go to Lak Muang oracle again. I want to ask divinity what will become of my book and my imcome property as well as my husband’s next move. I am so tired now and look forward to a rest and an alone time in Bangkok just stay for a few days without any contact from outside. What happen now with my family. I want to go for vacation down south and in Chiang Mai. I go toChiang Mai with my youngest daughter twice already. What will I do next. Burma and India and Shanghai. I really want to go with my husband experience Tibet and many other places. Tours are cheap in Thailand. O.K. There are so much in out look that I need to again input so not to forget about picking up the kids from the air port and how about Franklin, He did not want to travel to Thailand to stay for a short time. Will he see the family? I think Ben can work in Leysin this summer for camp counselor. It will be cool for him and we can stay in Europe for a little bit but what about all the other kids they want to go back to do the driving test. Isabelle will be able to do it automatically as she will be already 18 years old in February 2007. But she will go to Africa for community service first. It was so great to see the movie and the news last night. There things that touch people at different time.
O.k. Valerie would like to go in a different school next year. What will we do next ? I want to got o the air port so in the lounge I can read Paris match the latest issue. It was great to go see Henri and talked to Stephanie for a long time last night. And I bought something for sea food scraping ,I hope it can be taken with me to Thailand.Hope they will not freak out at airport and have me check it down the suitcase place. I need another lock for the small suitcase too.
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