It is almost 8 am and I am sitting in my living room in the gardenhome house in Bangkok. I was lucky yesterday I got the cleaning lady that look great and work well plus she is not live in. She can cook but not that great (she said) anyway anything is better than the one I have last time. She is cooking something for me today. I will see with Kluay what she want to do. I just got in contact with Khun Pim and talk to her about my house blessing ceremony. This is so great and I really would like my friend from Chiang Mai to come too. How about I call Deb from Chiang Mai. I am rather confused with all this thing about my family. How about calling Kluay right now and get thing straighten up. Today Ajan Suchart will come to see Khun Pim and I want to get the place ready for leang Phra. May be I could call the family right now to know when they can come. I can also call Tung. May be it is better to do now as I will invite her also. What else ,I need to call Pi Kowit and Pi Yai and all the others. Who else I want to call. I really would like to have the piano in this house. Will see about that later. It is so funny that I have the DHL sent to me today. I don’t have the caller ID but last night I got to talk with Sinead. My maid is making vegetarian soup for me right now. What else do I want to do. Did my sister call me ? Today , I only wanted to do very minimum. Who lease I wanted to see P Kowit /Jan and Rosie and all the others. What does Pi Kowit doing right now. He still teach at Kasetsart. The maid is o.k. I think this time I will buy the ironing board the good one so that ironing can be somehwhere else or can fold the board away. Nice to be talking to Khun Pim. At least
I talk correctly now. I got DHL today and what else do I need to do with the box. I can send the file to Amanita later. What do I need right now. I will go see Khun Pim on Monday and they are going to be something different. I can go to the temple not far from our house. May be should call Kluay now first before she come out of the house. I am too late now she is almost at my house. I am thinking of my chocolate. I want to bring one box to Khun Pim’s house. I am blessed by being surrounded by all the good friends. What do I do later. I can call to Khun Pim and Khun Somboon. When will they pick up the phone. I am looking forward to seeing Sinead next Wednesday. What else do I do. This year Khun Pim will be going to Bay area also. I will go with her. I am now very simple and don’t want to be disturb too easily by all the elements. So what do the people do for my garden ,I need to cure the disease first. I want to do the tum boon baan and get people to help bless the house I should do that often. But the most important is to have monk coming to bless the house. My sister is already there. May be I can turn of the air condition. It is very loud. I don’t know why and how it could be this loud. Having S&P catering for me should be great. That is what I need to do. Off course when Kluay came I cannot continue with my journal writing. I accomplished so much today. Got to talk with Khun Pim, Franklin and got to check the voice mail as well as deleted what I don’t want. What else do I need to do also. Got to have the think for orchid and the tree outside, the frangipagna. Anyway, today I need to finish with the book and send the draft to Amanita. I chat with Kluay today about Pi Pao. She is very nice but I can not understand the way P’Aew cannot let go of so many stuff. Why do I ave to be so irritated. She can not throw away anything and her house is full of junk. She is torn between the situation that her neighbour is going to build 8 stories condo. It will be so chaos for her but as she is so attached to the old and afraid of change and can nor let go she said the opposite. She said she give away so many thing already but my sister said she still ahs so much stuffs in her house. It is so interesting to chat with Kluay to know about how she feel uncomfortable with P’Aew ways of saying sarcastic remark. It deeply satisfy her may be without knowing. Letting go is difficult for her and she will never leave the house that she built with her husband who’d already left her. Actually her life terribly need updated. But she refuse to go on. My sister told me that she still keep the air conditioning unit in her study even the out side compressor is gone. Contrary to my youngest sister she throw big stuff away everyday. I love to write and I have been working hard raising my family. I am looking at the Asian game opening ceremony. It really time for Asia and I really want to go on with the flow. As my sister She is relived and satisfy after saying something sarcastic to some on . This is very subtle and she might not know it but it reflect what going on in the inside is the same as what’s going on in the outside. The inside is a chaos and not letting go. Her house is full of stuff and old memory that she keep not because she love the object but because she can not let them go. So it mean she still hanging on to the past to the old thing. Not letting go of the old mean no opportunity for welcoming the new. What do I do to help her and what effect this made on me. I think may be Pa Jan is the same. She also like not to change and want to be at the same place. She can not move. But she has more advantage because she live a little bit far from the building site. Pi Aew nees to work on herself. I am happy and can notice this unhealthy habit and hoarding tendency. T want to continue to grow meaning I need to work more on myself what else do I do. I am glad I let go and expand. I want to try new thing ,go to new placeand do new things . meet new people. If we stand still we will shrink. Now I can understand why I was so bored to be with P ‘Aew. But she was nice and her life was colourful up till she retired. Why do I need to think of her so much myself. How about continue to work on myself. Tomorrow, I will still go dance and play golf and continue and have no fear and no imagination about this or that. Glad to do this today and I still need to do thing with childlike freshness. May be because I have young children and three of them I need to carry on and keep up with the time. Glad to have this realization.
