Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Fist Par on nine hole
O.K. it was exciting. This week is full of soiree s and activities. Monday I have dinner with DAve & Chloe at Twiga. We went there late so we did not see the sunset. I want to help them with looking for new apartment in Pointe Noire. It should not be difficult. A lot of new apartment being built everyday here with a lot of new shops and hotels. The town is growing. Tuesday we ahve this thing with Credit Lyonnais. They changed name into credit congolais. So my husband told me that ,to email Pascal now we have to say Pascal@congolais dot com but Don't believe him. Also libertis phone has changed to MTN and we need to change sim card. How I hate to have the word petrolier or spouse of petrolier stick on my forehead everywhere I go in town. Even teh simple task as to put the memorised list of phone number from teh cell phone into sim card which is a service free of charge. The guy want to charge me 5000 frans for that. Because of me looking too mundele, too petrolire and too american. Well but did not fall for that. Armel the chauffeur said my husband would have paid for it without second thought. Anyway what's next on teh genda this week. Tuesday afternoon ,in spite of the rain, Isabel ,Vicki and me went to golf in teh afternoon. It was so nice not too hot and with gentle breeze from the sea. I got my first par on the 9th whole. Actually it si well worth a champagne. Anyway, I finally got around to return teh golf bag to Bienvenu in teh morning and register for this week Brasco competition. I can do this one before the Total competition next month. Todat , Wednesday ,we have ladies night out as usual but this time we will have it at Vicki's house for the farewell to Arunaa. She is moving to Singapore and for sure ,I know that I will see her again. I plan to bring the Te Te and Halo Halo with coconut ice cream. We only have Thursday free and Friday we have again something for Arunaa which is more formal at the Schumberger house. Them Saturday off course I will have drumming as ussual in the morning and teh exciting golf tournament in teh afternoon. Fro sure I need to go practice tomorow morning at 7 am. I want to call Chloe before she leave to borrow teh video of their wedding with the pygmy to watch. And also to have her contact BErnatuel and many others.I see Manuela on the net now.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I want to do the crazy child write with this computer for a practice. I really love the documentary on Madonna I watch last night. For the first time I feel like recording something from the TV program. Madonna has the right name . I think she is Italian American. Her husband a Scotman may be but she is very an icon. I don’t know how to describe her but now I am interested in going to one of her live concert. It is a genius work and hard work. There are a beautiful poem she wrote about her self that she has the life work as a Madonna the singer. This is her life mission and destiny She has only the song and the scene to awake people. Her work is brilliant her poems are touching and sincere. It come from the core of her being. And that is why it is soo gripping to audience. She withhold nothing. How I feel the pulsating of her soul and clear commucation. I would like to hear that again. It was such a good passionate documentary . I really want to get the DVD of it and give it to my daughter and I want to see it with her. She really learn the singing. I will learn to edit my work and to be with the crazy child. I will progress with the group. With Selene , Clive and all the other. Sharon and Steve. I like to get to know them better. They are sangha. I need the email of Sharon also. The poem of Madonna to her assistant is very touching and she share it with everybody. Secret is meant to be said. Some secret meant to be said. She is really dedicated and devote to her life work and life mission. She go to the core and I feel honoured to access the beauty of what she did offer to the audience. Off course we cannot say that is the best for so much is still can remained junk for some. But I really love it. I am aware that my taste and sensibility as well as my vibration has increase and expanded. I am of higher vibrations. I am off higher vibration and at this frequency , a lot will need to be discard or thrown out of orbit. Can not accommodate mediocrity for example. I am of higher vibration , I am awaked. I am intuned and in touch with a higher vibration and frequency of my being. I see, feel and am aware of another dimension of reality which is lighter, more fun and a lot of space has open up to me. I feel my connection with the 80,000 audiences in the rain like Madonna feel that night in Ireland ( Dublin ) think it must be in the rain in Ireland. She does not with hold anything she give away everything. It is ecstastic what will be the next step for me. I feel the mission and the book going to the core. I vibrate higher than before thing like Ophra or anything I use to like accumulate read and feel that it is interesting has already drop away one by one. There are new model, new arts, new way of being , new awareness and new frequency. This must be higher than what I normally experienced so far. It reach the 80,000 people or the 80 millions. If my book can sales like the one of J K Rowling. I would love that so much. But that is because the work worth it and it is more than life. It help people. It awaken them. Use my writing my soul to awaken people . It must be radical, daring and come from the highest of universe. From the source. As I feel it. It touched me.Iit is passionate. O.K. look at my daughter, how I want her to see this. How it must have been a lot if she need to stumbling on with trial and error. Everybody need to go through that. What does Madonna drink and eat and wear and practice. What is the routine of her everyday life ? I know that it must include so much of yoga , prayers meditation dance practice. So much physical and conceptual. Surrounded by so many creative out of the box ideas of songs ,dances and lyrics. With intense emotional exploration s and experimentation. That must be very interesting. How I wish to be in that kind of world and why not?I saw Al Gore the routine he gone to. In the movie. Movie told us a few thing but thatere is the guy behind the lens of the camera filming that. I can not absorb in that completely knowing the guy who is filming also. The knower and the known. I am very close to grab both of them.
I want to give a small feng shui class to people in Switzerland. I love my children . I did already got something. Did I want to give the cake for Isabelle birthdayin February 2007. May be I can have Isabelle do something at Khun Euay’s house. Will it be o.k. with her. I wonder how she is doing now. I want to call her again. I need to handle the set up of Valerie’s new school coomunication system .The power school that I will monitor very closely every week. They really no none sense there. I can’t wait for the internet to work. What to do next. Will we go to the drumming this week or not. I need to call Jennifer and Stephanie. I have so much to show to the drumming teacher. What do we do in our own beach. The place Malonda lodge is very nice and decent enough. We can really organized so much there. I really like the idea of having the writing group there. May be Vicky and Nielcould come too. How I love being back into the creative swing of thing. I like to have them organize the timing so that I know before hand what’s going on.
I want to also go look at the work of Mme Jamart. Go with Jaqueline to visit Grazialla. It will be great to visit Grazialla and how many people of the higher vibration that I will get to know and see. What will be the next thing to do. I need to call my piano teacher. I want to go on more go further with piano. My children did so much progress. I need to catch up with them also. Drumming and piano. I like the way Jean louis practice with the band. It was great. What else to do. I need to create my healing altar. So much need help and so much has going on with grace. I want to contribute and make a difference. Making a difference in someone life. The work of Madonna is large same as the one of JK Rowling. I am vibrating into that magnitude that vibration. That’s why I can see it appreciate it and can make sense out of it. I can get in touch with the greatness of it and the power of the mind the light of the work that shine bright in the world and pulsating in subtlties. This kind of wizardry seen only by the same frequency . Only the same frequency of vabration will recognized and appreciate. Nevermind the lower frequencies wher I use to be. It was alos precious and fun in its own way. We just only have to remain in our own acquired frequency until we ready for still another higher one with excitement and enthusiasm. This is another dimension of truth and realities that present itself and reveal itself to me as I attain higher frequency. This is another breakthrough. In the right place at the right time. And it is meant to be. I am excite to be in this dimension of a new reality. I am fortunate to the lightness, fun and shimmering sincereity, bliss and joy of it. I want to practice more yoga now. I become more into the body.
O.k the crazy child play time is finish by the sound of the timmer. I want to see how longer of the time I can keep going. May be it will be wise to just go and have lunch.
Set the table for this evening. So much still remain to be organized. Do I need to go for driving range today. I really need to practice yoga that’s for sure. Can I just put away all the stuff of this room. So much still can be given away. I will not go again to the Plateau market for the seafood. What will be the next thing to do? What they want to come to do thing for me. I am not too keen on seeing them here all the time. What was they. Is that the personal, the local people or what did I mean by they who come do thing for me. I can go to the Trentenaire for all of that.
15 Sept. 06
Another half an hour of crazy child writing. Last night we have Emerick, Fulvia and jean Paul over for diner. Jean Paul look very tired and hectic. Today is his last day in Pointe Noire. He ahs been here 4 years. He still as funny as before but I want to talk about Emerick he did do well from the loss he experience and we really don’t know what elase to do for him other than cheer him up and invite him to function from time to time. I just learn from Emerick that Choi is leaving also how about Jum and Pierre. We did not hear from them for so long and I want to go see Pi Pan also. How is she lately. She must be with all this Italian. I am elarning Italian right now. She is from Milano so she is a little bit different. Any way the most interesting is that Fulvia ‘s father. He did fishing and he fish Piranha and they also eat Piranha. We were talking about Kumqwati . All of us has been already but not all. I want really to invite Jacqueline and her husband over for diner. I will ask if it is o.k. with Franklin. Jacqueline and who elase. When is she going to Kenya. Do I need to have visa to go visit Grazialla. My interest is now more on the animal than on other thing. I want to also organize all these interesting sight for those people who are coming. What else do I do. What is the next step. I really would like to have Jacqueline and who else over. How about Grazialla. Do I call her ? This is my next instinct. What happen now to all these people. I need to call also Stephanie. Will we have the drumming tomorrow. I want to review what I haven’t done all summer. Yes the frist thing to do is to call Stephanie and go to see if we are going to have drumming tomorrow or not. Alec is also leaving. Who else is coming to replace him here in our house next door. How about Bastian . Is he back yet. Should I call him. Even Cathy did not answer my call. She might be busy and did not open her cell. I have so much to give the children. Orphanage. Should I do it now today. It is always interesting to go to the fresh market but one can only eat so much. I am more moderat now about buying food. What will be the next thing to do. I thing the cook ahs been taking a few stuff from the kitchen . Or have been eating out of the casserole while he cook. That’s inevitable. What will we have next . O.k. without this them thing can not be prepared and I will have to it all myself which is not what I want anyway. We still have this dry cake .I should have given that to Fulvia and kept the mousse or sabayon of Passion fruit. My friend can not grow passion fruit. I need to get another kinds of packaged grain for her from Switzerland. What to do next .I want to call her also from here. Why don’t I call Amanita and Phra maha Prasaert. Iw ant to send little angel to Phra Mike and ask about the thing of tet mah chat. This is my sunbject of interest. Not having to watch TV Madonna life I can also get something interesting to do and see. What will be the next thing I need to perform. Of course the kids really can go stay at Malonda lodge. Will it be full during the holidays season. We did not have too much problem with the relais de Kouilou last time we went. I want to have some other people to take there. They were not what I want. They want to make pottery and balancoir and many thing more interesting . Jean Paul and who else has completely different idea about it . This morning may be I can go to drive golf or even go to the Diosso to walk a little bit. I did not walk for the whole day. May be I rest enough now and ready to walk long distance. I don’t think it will be too hot this afternoon. It would be nice to just go and see how I do. For the driving range here at elast I did a few time hitting the ball. My husband still not relax enough to go more like me. I like going to the beach and walk around . I like going every morning on Tuesday and Friday. Doing golf is quite nice. I like to just talk a walk along the ebach and admire the nature. Coming home, I am exhausted and ready to take a nap or something. So much I can do and can walk and do exercise. When I go next time to Lugano and other , I will be completely tan again that is so good. What will be the next thing. I ave to get out to walk on the beach and may be I should also do that tomorrow morning. Today afternoon and tomorrow morning. In between this time I will read the parents week end for Benjamin. I will call him to see how he is doing. The best time to call is early in the morning. What to do next I like doing this. Talking about what I ddi yesterday. It wa smy son’s 19 years old day. I really love him and he can atleast feel and sense my love for him. Yesterday we talk sabout the display of affection. And the French are mor etouchy feely about it the most. What about the new word we learn at the table yesterday. It was this thing in English called show off meaning in French frimeur. I thing I spell it correct frimeur or frimeuse . do tahy use this term nowdays. What happen again in this little town so much is need to be back in the swing of thing after going away for so long. What will be the next step. I want to go for the golf. At least now I got to almost ready to be in the tournoi. What do I do next. I can also call Jacqueline now. I will do what Sharon say. Keep going for a little while as this start to flow. I like doing this and I have so many progress these days. What else do I do now. I have to see with Selene about going to her workshop. I really want to organize this writing workshop in point Noire and another one in Kenya if can go first to take a look and I can call Grazialla with out problem. What else do I need to call Jacqueline now and also call Mme Jamart. She is a very nice lady at heart and we really like to talk to her and have Fernando and everybody come over at my house for diner one time. Especially Fernando. He is very nice and interesting. What happen next I don’t know but I like knowing them and their unpretentious style. I think this is the way I make progress. O.k. places I wanted to go before I leave here is Kenya, Senegal and Ghana. How about with Ashana and Andrie. O.K. now the next step is to call Jacqueline and talk about that with her. Ask about the phone number of Garzialla and go from there. I want to have Jacqueline and her husband over next week. I should invite them with whom. And who else do I need to see. Choi and Stephanie and Cathya nd Bastian and some other people I will have good time with. Such as Jennifer the dance instructor and piano teacher the dance teacher, the Italian talking people.
9 Sept.06
I wish I were Fernando, or Selene or any of the poets in our group. If I were the poet , how am I going to introduce Gregoire to people. To me he is the symbol of Africa. My African experience.
Gregoir is a chimpanzee who has been saved, by Jane Goddall, from being slaughtered for meat in the market place in Congo. This thing is still going on right now till today. When chimp were caught by the poacher. The mother will be slaughtered for meat. If the baby come attached with the mother, they usually are too to eat. So the poacher is much better off selling them in the market for pet. We often see the carcass of the mother in the market with the baby next to it to be sold as pet.
But chimp is a wild animal. They can be dangerous, like any wild animal when fully grown and confined in a limited space. Or to be exact, when they loose their freedom.
Wild animal are not dangerous when they have the freedom to roam free in the wild , to hunt, to mate, to explore , to develop on their own in nature. But with advancing desert , natural forest keep getting smaller and smaller. The real wilderness is rare to come by. Did I ever experience the real real wildlife in Africa? I think Gregoir could be just the one to testify that there are no more real wildlife left in Africa. Only wildlife reserves, monitored by international agencies. Most of the monitoring personnel are on volunteered basis. They do it because they love it or want to learn about it not for the pay.
Chimp, like all being on earth, does not do well in a zoo situation. Does any do well in a cage ? To me,this is the spirit of Africa. Nobody do well in a cage. Why do I like it so much? Am I in a cage right now ? The cage of expression. The cage of the language . The cage of the editor. May be my spirit is not completely free. Eventhough, it look like I can do whatever I want to do and can write whatever I want to write but we need words. What kind of words does the English language has . is it enough to explain, convey or come close to the expressive rhythm of these transforming wilderness of Africa.Will the drum set me free ? I am caged and limited. Will the shaking of my liver in the African dance shake all the words of my African experience and liberate me? I think may be the poet can. They are wizard of words. They can use so little words to describe so many wordless concepts. To really share my experience of Africa to realize what it mean to be free. I need to enlist the help of an organic poet. What it mean to be free from cage. Free to survive in the wild.
But notice this, Gregoir is in a cage sitting there like an old grand pa. Greeting eth reserve visitors with blanked eyes. I cannot communicate with him but I feel safe when I see him in the cage. How about if he come out of the cage / Will I still feel as safe. Grazialla, the reserve manager, went into the cage to greet him. They look like long time old friends. The human and the old sage ape. They hold hands and communicate. It was a wordless exchange. Beauty and the beast. Old grand pa in the cage receiving visit from the rest of the clan. If I can only come this far. As far as I know Gregoir is the oldest chimpanzee ,known to man, in the world. His grand pa aura still shine bright in the Jane Goddall chimpanzee reserve in Tchimpunga national park in the republic of Congo. My general view on zoo, wildlife , pet and freedom had changed after my encounter with Gregoir. Grand pa Gregoir epitomized my African experience. What it means to be free. What it means to be caged.
Sea turtles sighting
We have travelled more than 6 hours on a dusty bumpy road from Pointe Noire to Kumqwati. We have cross the strong current of the Numbi rever on a raft pulled by hand to arrive at the basic reserve called H.E.L.P. in French Habitation ecologique et liberte des primate.It is as wild as one can experienced. The day before we packed everything we need to survive on the bare necessities there. Food and drink enough for our three days in the center. Our own moskitoes nets and pillow and pillow cases and blankets as well as water to brush teeth with and our own toilet paper if we need to use them. There will be roof over our head and the basic bungalow with raised floor so that we are safe from crawling insect on the ground. The bathroom is a basic hut with wood door enough place to stand with a bucket of river water and a little basin made form empty formula can to scoop water from the bucket and shower over ourselves
I want to give a small feng shui class to people in Switzerland. I love my children . I did already got something. Did I want to give the cake for Isabelle birthdayin February 2007. May be I can have Isabelle do something at Khun Euay’s house. Will it be o.k. with her. I wonder how she is doing now. I want to call her again. I need to handle the set up of Valerie’s new school coomunication system .The power school that I will monitor very closely every week. They really no none sense there. I can’t wait for the internet to work. What to do next. Will we go to the drumming this week or not. I need to call Jennifer and Stephanie. I have so much to show to the drumming teacher. What do we do in our own beach. The place Malonda lodge is very nice and decent enough. We can really organized so much there. I really like the idea of having the writing group there. May be Vicky and Nielcould come too. How I love being back into the creative swing of thing. I like to have them organize the timing so that I know before hand what’s going on.
I want to also go look at the work of Mme Jamart. Go with Jaqueline to visit Grazialla. It will be great to visit Grazialla and how many people of the higher vibration that I will get to know and see. What will be the next thing to do. I need to call my piano teacher. I want to go on more go further with piano. My children did so much progress. I need to catch up with them also. Drumming and piano. I like the way Jean louis practice with the band. It was great. What else to do. I need to create my healing altar. So much need help and so much has going on with grace. I want to contribute and make a difference. Making a difference in someone life. The work of Madonna is large same as the one of JK Rowling. I am vibrating into that magnitude that vibration. That’s why I can see it appreciate it and can make sense out of it. I can get in touch with the greatness of it and the power of the mind the light of the work that shine bright in the world and pulsating in subtlties. This kind of wizardry seen only by the same frequency . Only the same frequency of vabration will recognized and appreciate. Nevermind the lower frequencies wher I use to be. It was alos precious and fun in its own way. We just only have to remain in our own acquired frequency until we ready for still another higher one with excitement and enthusiasm. This is another dimension of truth and realities that present itself and reveal itself to me as I attain higher frequency. This is another breakthrough. In the right place at the right time. And it is meant to be. I am excite to be in this dimension of a new reality. I am fortunate to the lightness, fun and shimmering sincereity, bliss and joy of it. I want to practice more yoga now. I become more into the body.
O.k the crazy child play time is finish by the sound of the timmer. I want to see how longer of the time I can keep going. May be it will be wise to just go and have lunch.
Set the table for this evening. So much still remain to be organized. Do I need to go for driving range today. I really need to practice yoga that’s for sure. Can I just put away all the stuff of this room. So much still can be given away. I will not go again to the Plateau market for the seafood. What will be the next thing to do? What they want to come to do thing for me. I am not too keen on seeing them here all the time. What was they. Is that the personal, the local people or what did I mean by they who come do thing for me. I can go to the Trentenaire for all of that.
15 Sept. 06
Another half an hour of crazy child writing. Last night we have Emerick, Fulvia and jean Paul over for diner. Jean Paul look very tired and hectic. Today is his last day in Pointe Noire. He ahs been here 4 years. He still as funny as before but I want to talk about Emerick he did do well from the loss he experience and we really don’t know what elase to do for him other than cheer him up and invite him to function from time to time. I just learn from Emerick that Choi is leaving also how about Jum and Pierre. We did not hear from them for so long and I want to go see Pi Pan also. How is she lately. She must be with all this Italian. I am elarning Italian right now. She is from Milano so she is a little bit different. Any way the most interesting is that Fulvia ‘s father. He did fishing and he fish Piranha and they also eat Piranha. We were talking about Kumqwati . All of us has been already but not all. I want really to invite Jacqueline and her husband over for diner. I will ask if it is o.k. with Franklin. Jacqueline and who elase. When is she going to Kenya. Do I need to have visa to go visit Grazialla. My interest is now more on the animal than on other thing. I want to also organize all these interesting sight for those people who are coming. What else do I do. What is the next step. I really would like to have Jacqueline and who else over. How about Grazialla. Do I call her ? This is my next instinct. What happen now to all these people. I need to call also Stephanie. Will we have the drumming tomorrow. I want to review what I haven’t done all summer. Yes the frist thing to do is to call Stephanie and go to see if we are going to have drumming tomorrow or not. Alec is also leaving. Who else is coming to replace him here in our house next door. How about Bastian . Is he back yet. Should I call him. Even Cathy did not answer my call. She might be busy and did not open her cell. I have so much to give the children. Orphanage. Should I do it now today. It is always interesting to go to the fresh market but one can only eat so much. I am more moderat now about buying food. What will be the next thing to do. I thing the cook ahs been taking a few stuff from the kitchen . Or have been eating out of the casserole while he cook. That’s inevitable. What will we have next . O.k. without this them thing can not be prepared and I will have to it all myself which is not what I want anyway. We still have this dry cake .I should have given that to Fulvia and kept the mousse or sabayon of Passion fruit. My friend can not grow passion fruit. I need to get another kinds of packaged grain for her from Switzerland. What to do next .I want to call her also from here. Why don’t I call Amanita and Phra maha Prasaert. Iw ant to send little angel to Phra Mike and ask about the thing of tet mah chat. This is my sunbject of interest. Not having to watch TV Madonna life I can also get something interesting to do and see. What will be the next thing I need to perform. Of course the kids really can go stay at Malonda lodge. Will it be full during the holidays season. We did not have too much problem with the relais de Kouilou last time we went. I want to have some other people to take there. They were not what I want. They want to make pottery and balancoir and many thing more interesting . Jean Paul and who else has completely different idea about it . This morning may be I can go to drive golf or even go to the Diosso to walk a little bit. I did not walk for the whole day. May be I rest enough now and ready to walk long distance. I don’t think it will be too hot this afternoon. It would be nice to just go and see how I do. For the driving range here at elast I did a few time hitting the ball. My husband still not relax enough to go more like me. I like going to the beach and walk around . I like going every morning on Tuesday and Friday. Doing golf is quite nice. I like to just talk a walk along the ebach and admire the nature. Coming home, I am exhausted and ready to take a nap or something. So much I can do and can walk and do exercise. When I go next time to Lugano and other , I will be completely tan again that is so good. What will be the next thing. I ave to get out to walk on the beach and may be I should also do that tomorrow morning. Today afternoon and tomorrow morning. In between this time I will read the parents week end for Benjamin. I will call him to see how he is doing. The best time to call is early in the morning. What to do next I like doing this. Talking about what I ddi yesterday. It wa smy son’s 19 years old day. I really love him and he can atleast feel and sense my love for him. Yesterday we talk sabout the display of affection. And the French are mor etouchy feely about it the most. What about the new word we learn at the table yesterday. It was this thing in English called show off meaning in French frimeur. I thing I spell it correct frimeur or frimeuse . do tahy use this term nowdays. What happen again in this little town so much is need to be back in the swing of thing after going away for so long. What will be the next step. I want to go for the golf. At least now I got to almost ready to be in the tournoi. What do I do next. I can also call Jacqueline now. I will do what Sharon say. Keep going for a little while as this start to flow. I like doing this and I have so many progress these days. What else do I do now. I have to see with Selene about going to her workshop. I really want to organize this writing workshop in point Noire and another one in Kenya if can go first to take a look and I can call Grazialla with out problem. What else do I need to call Jacqueline now and also call Mme Jamart. She is a very nice lady at heart and we really like to talk to her and have Fernando and everybody come over at my house for diner one time. Especially Fernando. He is very nice and interesting. What happen next I don’t know but I like knowing them and their unpretentious style. I think this is the way I make progress. O.k. places I wanted to go before I leave here is Kenya, Senegal and Ghana. How about with Ashana and Andrie. O.K. now the next step is to call Jacqueline and talk about that with her. Ask about the phone number of Garzialla and go from there. I want to have Jacqueline and her husband over next week. I should invite them with whom. And who else do I need to see. Choi and Stephanie and Cathya nd Bastian and some other people I will have good time with. Such as Jennifer the dance instructor and piano teacher the dance teacher, the Italian talking people.
9 Sept.06
I wish I were Fernando, or Selene or any of the poets in our group. If I were the poet , how am I going to introduce Gregoire to people. To me he is the symbol of Africa. My African experience.
Gregoir is a chimpanzee who has been saved, by Jane Goddall, from being slaughtered for meat in the market place in Congo. This thing is still going on right now till today. When chimp were caught by the poacher. The mother will be slaughtered for meat. If the baby come attached with the mother, they usually are too to eat. So the poacher is much better off selling them in the market for pet. We often see the carcass of the mother in the market with the baby next to it to be sold as pet.
But chimp is a wild animal. They can be dangerous, like any wild animal when fully grown and confined in a limited space. Or to be exact, when they loose their freedom.
Wild animal are not dangerous when they have the freedom to roam free in the wild , to hunt, to mate, to explore , to develop on their own in nature. But with advancing desert , natural forest keep getting smaller and smaller. The real wilderness is rare to come by. Did I ever experience the real real wildlife in Africa? I think Gregoir could be just the one to testify that there are no more real wildlife left in Africa. Only wildlife reserves, monitored by international agencies. Most of the monitoring personnel are on volunteered basis. They do it because they love it or want to learn about it not for the pay.
Chimp, like all being on earth, does not do well in a zoo situation. Does any do well in a cage ? To me,this is the spirit of Africa. Nobody do well in a cage. Why do I like it so much? Am I in a cage right now ? The cage of expression. The cage of the language . The cage of the editor. May be my spirit is not completely free. Eventhough, it look like I can do whatever I want to do and can write whatever I want to write but we need words. What kind of words does the English language has . is it enough to explain, convey or come close to the expressive rhythm of these transforming wilderness of Africa.Will the drum set me free ? I am caged and limited. Will the shaking of my liver in the African dance shake all the words of my African experience and liberate me? I think may be the poet can. They are wizard of words. They can use so little words to describe so many wordless concepts. To really share my experience of Africa to realize what it mean to be free. I need to enlist the help of an organic poet. What it mean to be free from cage. Free to survive in the wild.
But notice this, Gregoir is in a cage sitting there like an old grand pa. Greeting eth reserve visitors with blanked eyes. I cannot communicate with him but I feel safe when I see him in the cage. How about if he come out of the cage / Will I still feel as safe. Grazialla, the reserve manager, went into the cage to greet him. They look like long time old friends. The human and the old sage ape. They hold hands and communicate. It was a wordless exchange. Beauty and the beast. Old grand pa in the cage receiving visit from the rest of the clan. If I can only come this far. As far as I know Gregoir is the oldest chimpanzee ,known to man, in the world. His grand pa aura still shine bright in the Jane Goddall chimpanzee reserve in Tchimpunga national park in the republic of Congo. My general view on zoo, wildlife , pet and freedom had changed after my encounter with Gregoir. Grand pa Gregoir epitomized my African experience. What it means to be free. What it means to be caged.
Sea turtles sighting
We have travelled more than 6 hours on a dusty bumpy road from Pointe Noire to Kumqwati. We have cross the strong current of the Numbi rever on a raft pulled by hand to arrive at the basic reserve called H.E.L.P. in French Habitation ecologique et liberte des primate.It is as wild as one can experienced. The day before we packed everything we need to survive on the bare necessities there. Food and drink enough for our three days in the center. Our own moskitoes nets and pillow and pillow cases and blankets as well as water to brush teeth with and our own toilet paper if we need to use them. There will be roof over our head and the basic bungalow with raised floor so that we are safe from crawling insect on the ground. The bathroom is a basic hut with wood door enough place to stand with a bucket of river water and a little basin made form empty formula can to scoop water from the bucket and shower over ourselves
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Massage take care of everything
In spite of a bad headache yesterday, I went to play golf this morning for nine holes. It is always nice to go to Diosso and walk the seaside golf course for one hour or two no matter if you hit the golf ball or not. I still need to change my attitude toward the caddy who always ask for either an advance because his mother or daughter is sick or ask to meet my husband for a job or any other favour they can get.Since there is no other way they can get anything they need to ask us,the mundele expat. What else can they do and who else can they ask. It is irritating but what can we do. We can not get by here without caddy. Thanks to them and their infinite patience that I can play and appreciate golf the way I do right now. I can never get this in the united states where patience , class , expectation and time all cost money. ANyway, the one who got sick this morning is my husband. he stayed in bed all morning but woke up and went to work after lunch time. I also feel funny and lazy but I ahve help. Rosette is coming in teh afternoon for pedicure an dmassage. And now thanks to her massage session for bothe feet and body,I am up and sitting here writing this.Next thing to do is figure out how to spell check and edit it quickly and put in some pictures. I saw so much thing that I should atke pictures Baobub tree , teh guy who climb the palm tree and get regime de palm for palm wine , the mama with little baby tied up at her back. If i ahve to be thankful today it will be for Christ, the caddy, Armel, the chauffeur and Rossette ,the masseuse. What can I do without them in this idyllic ,relaxing setting.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Time to put pictures
It rain this evening not too much and We ahve seem miss Lucky walking around in teh backyard. I have got to my old Dell and start working on it to extract all my files and pictures and clean it all up to be ready to give to teh monk in Pak Chong next time I go there. Iahve been trying to call Ranrong but can not get through to him. I got through to Kluay without problem and Pi Aew.Look like Ying /Aruna has been in Thaialnd lately. Wonder if she 'd made it to Pi Yai 's 80th BD party or not. it wa snice to see the pictures. I ask Pi Aew about teh workshop location enar Korat and Wang Nam Keow came up as teh ideal location. I will follow up tomoro as I 'd already made soem enquiries about accommodationa nd touring service. Now it's time to put teh picture and make it nice.
Lesson three yoga & meditation & delete &space clearing
I am now back in Pointe Noire. Still not completely unpacked but ready for the yoga and meditation routine. O.K. It has been almost 4 days in a row that I did not practice yoga but luckily I did a mini version in Brazzaville once on Wednesday morning before going to Brazzaville zoo. I was so sad to see all the animal lock up in small cages without any care or feeding. Luckily ,I heard from Rebecca and David that they send a keeper from Tchipunga there to take care of Jorly the big grown chimp there. Soon he will be transfered to Tchimpunga. But how about all the other animal. Can they be released. The lions have been eaten by the locals during the civil war 7-8 years ago. The crocodile in the small enclosure look so miserable and pathetic.
Ramane teh chauffeur told me that before the war this zoo was very big and beautiful. very well kept. It must ahve been under the care of Jacqueline at that time. Now we only see the trace of it on a tired dirty picture on teh wall. There a congolese came to ask for the entrance fee of 200 francs. I was too sad to walk around so we went to the ecole de beaux arts. I only saw some paintings. It was not that big but at least it is covered with roof and there is an exhibition hall.
I bought 2 rainbow trout from Score for Welcome to cook. He is very eager to work as there are not too many visitors coming to this office for an extended stay any more. Unlike 3 years ago when this office was very active with three rented cars and three full time chauffeur with 10,000 $ a month expat cook caterer and full service 5 stars hotels management for one of the local director and his clan. Eversince he has been sacked the glamour of the office has been reduced. Now Welcome , who use to be a mere helper or busboy in kitchen is teh one who run the whole five stories building with 5 bedroom suites and a full bar entertainment room. He run up and down stairs each day cleaning, replenishing toilet paper and small bar fridge on the five floor ect... Eventhough there are no guest at all now a day he still very busy from 6 in teh morning till 8 at night to clean the whole place.
I am very good at babbling about something elase when I want to talk about yoga and meditation. I am at lesson three on teh home study course about meditation. There ia these breathing exercise that I really enjoyed. I did that on Friday afternoon. The message lady did not show up so I spend my masage time to get cought up with lesson three about teh power of breathing in meditation. I love the guided music and instruction before really settle down to do teh medition for 25 minutes. Off course it always the same. Mind wonder everywhere. There was no proof of mind wondering when there is no journal entries. I like to read all of these just to assure myself that I ahev dummped so much out already. Eventhough , I'd never get to where I want to go but the knowledge of deleting already so much junk out of my system really reassure me. yes why did I not read and work on my edited chapters that came back almost two months ago. May be by asking this I will do it. WHen will be the right time. And why do I need to spend time in front of all teh junk on TV every night eventhough I realise that it is junk and it is totally a waste of time. O.K. time get serious and call for info about Khao Yai to get my act together for teh plan of having writing playshop in Northern Thailand next year.
Ramane teh chauffeur told me that before the war this zoo was very big and beautiful. very well kept. It must ahve been under the care of Jacqueline at that time. Now we only see the trace of it on a tired dirty picture on teh wall. There a congolese came to ask for the entrance fee of 200 francs. I was too sad to walk around so we went to the ecole de beaux arts. I only saw some paintings. It was not that big but at least it is covered with roof and there is an exhibition hall.
I bought 2 rainbow trout from Score for Welcome to cook. He is very eager to work as there are not too many visitors coming to this office for an extended stay any more. Unlike 3 years ago when this office was very active with three rented cars and three full time chauffeur with 10,000 $ a month expat cook caterer and full service 5 stars hotels management for one of the local director and his clan. Eversince he has been sacked the glamour of the office has been reduced. Now Welcome , who use to be a mere helper or busboy in kitchen is teh one who run the whole five stories building with 5 bedroom suites and a full bar entertainment room. He run up and down stairs each day cleaning, replenishing toilet paper and small bar fridge on the five floor ect... Eventhough there are no guest at all now a day he still very busy from 6 in teh morning till 8 at night to clean the whole place.
I am very good at babbling about something elase when I want to talk about yoga and meditation. I am at lesson three on teh home study course about meditation. There ia these breathing exercise that I really enjoyed. I did that on Friday afternoon. The message lady did not show up so I spend my masage time to get cought up with lesson three about teh power of breathing in meditation. I love the guided music and instruction before really settle down to do teh medition for 25 minutes. Off course it always the same. Mind wonder everywhere. There was no proof of mind wondering when there is no journal entries. I like to read all of these just to assure myself that I ahev dummped so much out already. Eventhough , I'd never get to where I want to go but the knowledge of deleting already so much junk out of my system really reassure me. yes why did I not read and work on my edited chapters that came back almost two months ago. May be by asking this I will do it. WHen will be the right time. And why do I need to spend time in front of all teh junk on TV every night eventhough I realise that it is junk and it is totally a waste of time. O.K. time get serious and call for info about Khao Yai to get my act together for teh plan of having writing playshop in Northern Thailand next year.
Monday, March 5, 2007
In Brazaville March5,07
We are finally in Brazaville with our Picnic refi papers. Franklin agree to come and get it all signed and notarised. Chelsea met us in Meridien hotel not too far from the office. We finished the process in less than an hour but I need to wait in Brazaville for another two nights to get the the ahole set of paper back to DHL to Rhoda. I am glad it will be over soon. I was so dissappointed to learn from Luc Mathut that I can not go to visit Lesio Luna the gorilla sanctuary in Brazaville while I wait for the document. As right now they are moving a big one somewhere and all the personel of the sanctuary will be busy. I will have to find something else to do I wait to get the document back. This is the problem of Africa; We can never plan anything because there is always something else get in the way. I was rather mad that I can not go but what can I do. I asked the guy when can I go to see it. He said to call again in a week or two. I am not too keen to come from Pointe Noire especially just only to go this place. We paid almost 300 dollars for teh plane ticket. But if we need to come for something elase like doing this refi paper and we can combine with this it will be better. Anyway this is just not the right time. I don t know when I will come again. I am not particularly interested enough to come especially for that. I told my husband that I might call to get the lodging and come again next time with Fulvia. Anyway will see when I have the next chance to come. Tomorow I will visit the monument of Braza and take the picture of the rifle in front of the president house. Go to the Zaire embassy and find out the formalities to get Zaire visa so that I can put the Kenya trip together. We had diner at Hippocamp and after we finished our diner the group of the gorilla sanctuary came in to have diner. It was quite a big group and I get to see Luc the guy who I talked to before. I can see how it is going be too complicate for me go there tomorrow with all that they have going tomorow. I told my husband we will see when we have the opportunity to come. May be on the way to Kinshasa and what not? or on the way to Kenya we stop by for one day. I am not too keen to go spend the night. may be go there early in the morning and look at the feeding and come back in the afternoon or evening. According to Fernando, it will be developed to be a good tourist spot but may be it will take sometimes. They need particularly people who has enough interest to make such a plan to come but there certain kind of people for certain kind of place always. It is still a pity that I have time now and in Brazaville but can not do it.I think I should just forget about it and focus on Kenya first. And if we have Kenya plan all spell out then we might be able to put one day in Brazaville for this.I am not gorilla professionals anyway. I just happen to be in the area in Africa where I can see it in natural habitat. I might not have opportunity to see it after I leave Africa which could be very soon. I am ready anyway to see and do something else. This morning I got closer to teh Kenya trip. I went to SDV personally and purchased the Pointe Noire / Brzaville ticket then I ask info about teh Kenya trip the best way would be Pointe Noire / Brazaville then Brazaville / KInshasa and Kinshasa /Nairobi. Roughly the price of plane will be 300 dollars P/N to Brazaville then Brazaville/Kinshasa and Kinshasa to nairobi will be 800 dollars the whole thing will cost 1100 dollars just for plane ticket per person. And the 10 days trip in Kenya will be 8000 dollars person so altogether per persone we will need 10 000 to 11 000 dollars to make this trip. WE must be really motivated. It is not cheap.I wonder how much it will cost if we go first to Europe.
Sunday, March 4, 2007
Speedo#2 and teh backyard pets
Speedo #2 and the backyard pets
Miss Lucky showed up at our gate right the day we move into this house called villa 5 Pandino in Pointe Noire. It was raining hard the night before and the next morning we adopted miss Lucky as our pet. She has been with us for more than three years now. She is very intelligent. Now she can hear our voice and can response to our call when she feels like it.
Today I got another little land turtle miss Speedo . She reminds me of our first green turtle we got from the Chinese
piano teacher in Oakland. The kids call her Speed. These littles ones has nothing to do with the tortoise in the
Aesope tale , the hare and the tortoise. Both little baby turtles crawl and climb at a speed of lightning. They run on
the ground so fast that my kids name them Speed. Too bad we were too careless and our first Speed past away
before we can see it full grown.
Now we have this little Speed#2. The kids did not get to meet her yet. I want to send the photo of cute little Speed #2 to all of them today. How these turtles remind me that idea , value , perception and belief can change. Everything changed every moment. How many times do I have to remind myself. For example ,my belief or general belief that turtle are slow. Look at these little Speed and I have to change my idea. The day Speed # 2 came to our house. I put her in an enclosed area. And went inside the house to go to the bathroom. When came out she’s already climbed up
The corner of the enclosed area and ready to escape. I need to put under surveillance and did not dare to leave her in the unsupervised area in the garden. She is too tiny to be there and we will never find her back should she escape from the enclosure.
Miss Speed#2 was a pleasant surprise for me for the day but the best is yet to come. After putting Speed in a safe place I went out to pick up John. He has been nursing Nichole, who was sick with malaria, over the last few days. John had kindly volunteer to help me with my blog. I am so excited to have this blog up and running the way I want. It turn out that John spent the whole late afternoon not only patiently setting up the blog but solve my web site problem and clean up quite a lot of junk in my computer. The task involve several calls to Tou in Bay area at 7.45AM California time I only tried three times and Tou miraculously picked up the phone. Handing the phone to John and hear the two young guys talk computer language that completely beyond me was so much fun and entertaining. We even manage to send the whole web site to Luann and set up everything with network solution. We made so much progress in so short a time. It was a Godsend or what. After this, ordeal to me, a snap of a finger for John, we have a Friday light diner together with Franklin and Nichole who managed to to eat a few bites. My husband was so excited to find out that John came from Kinshasa and they have all kids of discussion about the different sites in the Belgian Congo that they both know very well. After that we spend the rest of the Friday night listen to John’s piano music.
John left the next day after joining us for drumming and playing a few guitar songs for us. I still humming ‘ All my loving ‘and some songs that I like from last night. I don’t know the name but it starts It’s not time to make a change such relax take it easy. You are young that’s your false there so much you have to know find the girl settle down iF you want you can marry look at me I am old but I am happy. …..
These past two weekends have been very musical to me with the visit of the Seth Sharp last week and John this week. Thinking of the blessings I received while meditation everyday at the same spot in the house. I have been trying to write down the sensation. It was difficult to express the surge of sensation I experience during meditation the Guru , in a form of CD voice even suggest drawing but now I know better. I want to sing that.
Yes , I idea and belief change again. The belief about singing has been changed and what express the closest to my sensation of meditation so far is elaborated in the song ‘Across the Universe”
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pool of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world (3)
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes.
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letterbox
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
Sound of laughter shades of earth are ringing through my open view
Inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
I just realize the word JAI , GURU, Deva , and OM.
Jai is like hail, or Chaiyo in thai meaning Cheers in a spiritual way. Guru is great teacher.Deva is angle or light beings. OM is primordial sacred sound used a lot in Mantra and yoga.
It has been so many years since I hear this song but now it make so much sense and have so much profound meaning to me. I am glad my husband did not get modernized too quickly and still keep the 33-45 records. It is very old fashion to be using the record when every one else are using CD but nothing gonna change my world, nothing gona change my world, nothing gona change my world……
So much of the new paradyme which at times will become old replacing by another paradyme.
And here is the vibration of what Africa has offered to me so far.
Miss Lucky showed up at our gate right the day we move into this house called villa 5 Pandino in Pointe Noire. It was raining hard the night before and the next morning we adopted miss Lucky as our pet. She has been with us for more than three years now. She is very intelligent. Now she can hear our voice and can response to our call when she feels like it.
Today I got another little land turtle miss Speedo . She reminds me of our first green turtle we got from the Chinese
piano teacher in Oakland. The kids call her Speed. These littles ones has nothing to do with the tortoise in the
Aesope tale , the hare and the tortoise. Both little baby turtles crawl and climb at a speed of lightning. They run on
the ground so fast that my kids name them Speed. Too bad we were too careless and our first Speed past away
before we can see it full grown.
Now we have this little Speed#2. The kids did not get to meet her yet. I want to send the photo of cute little Speed #2 to all of them today. How these turtles remind me that idea , value , perception and belief can change. Everything changed every moment. How many times do I have to remind myself. For example ,my belief or general belief that turtle are slow. Look at these little Speed and I have to change my idea. The day Speed # 2 came to our house. I put her in an enclosed area. And went inside the house to go to the bathroom. When came out she’s already climbed up
The corner of the enclosed area and ready to escape. I need to put under surveillance and did not dare to leave her in the unsupervised area in the garden. She is too tiny to be there and we will never find her back should she escape from the enclosure.
Miss Speed#2 was a pleasant surprise for me for the day but the best is yet to come. After putting Speed in a safe place I went out to pick up John. He has been nursing Nichole, who was sick with malaria, over the last few days. John had kindly volunteer to help me with my blog. I am so excited to have this blog up and running the way I want. It turn out that John spent the whole late afternoon not only patiently setting up the blog but solve my web site problem and clean up quite a lot of junk in my computer. The task involve several calls to Tou in Bay area at 7.45AM California time I only tried three times and Tou miraculously picked up the phone. Handing the phone to John and hear the two young guys talk computer language that completely beyond me was so much fun and entertaining. We even manage to send the whole web site to Luann and set up everything with network solution. We made so much progress in so short a time. It was a Godsend or what. After this, ordeal to me, a snap of a finger for John, we have a Friday light diner together with Franklin and Nichole who managed to to eat a few bites. My husband was so excited to find out that John came from Kinshasa and they have all kids of discussion about the different sites in the Belgian Congo that they both know very well. After that we spend the rest of the Friday night listen to John’s piano music.
John left the next day after joining us for drumming and playing a few guitar songs for us. I still humming ‘ All my loving ‘and some songs that I like from last night. I don’t know the name but it starts It’s not time to make a change such relax take it easy. You are young that’s your false there so much you have to know find the girl settle down iF you want you can marry look at me I am old but I am happy. …..
These past two weekends have been very musical to me with the visit of the Seth Sharp last week and John this week. Thinking of the blessings I received while meditation everyday at the same spot in the house. I have been trying to write down the sensation. It was difficult to express the surge of sensation I experience during meditation the Guru , in a form of CD voice even suggest drawing but now I know better. I want to sing that.
Yes , I idea and belief change again. The belief about singing has been changed and what express the closest to my sensation of meditation so far is elaborated in the song ‘Across the Universe”
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pool of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world (3)
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes.
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letterbox
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
Sound of laughter shades of earth are ringing through my open view
Inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe.
JAI GURU DEVA OM
Nothing gonna change my world(3)
I just realize the word JAI , GURU, Deva , and OM.
Jai is like hail, or Chaiyo in thai meaning Cheers in a spiritual way. Guru is great teacher.Deva is angle or light beings. OM is primordial sacred sound used a lot in Mantra and yoga.
It has been so many years since I hear this song but now it make so much sense and have so much profound meaning to me. I am glad my husband did not get modernized too quickly and still keep the 33-45 records. It is very old fashion to be using the record when every one else are using CD but nothing gonna change my world, nothing gona change my world, nothing gona change my world……
So much of the new paradyme which at times will become old replacing by another paradyme.
And here is the vibration of what Africa has offered to me so far.
Thursday, March 1, 2007
March 1,2007
This is more flexible than website. I am stuck with my web site for almost a year now. can not do anything about it yet. Hi Selene, Izzy, Valera , Benjamin, Sylvia , Nichole. I am sitting in front of my husband 's computer at 8.30 pm in Pointe Noire , Congo. Finally got this blog started. What did I do today. We went to Migitel hotel to meet Chelsea from the U.S. embassy to do some paper work with her. But it is more than likely those paper will not work with what we are trying right now. LAst night we have fun with all our diner guests. i make a note to myself to get DVD of teh movie ,the last king of Scotland when it come out. I also revisit my intention for this 2007. Very ambitious goal. i want to practice meditation everyday for at elast 20 minutes and practice yoga for an hour and a half each day. I have started yoga teacher training course with Ajan Sunee in Bangkok last November when I was in thailand. It has always been my intention to practice yoga daily and teh only way to do taht is to get the teacher's training course going. Great that finally I found the right teacher and way to do it. Ajan Sunee is the student of my first yoga teacher Khru Chod Hasbumreu back when I was a high school student. Khru Chod passed away a few years ago and I ahve been practing all styles and forms of yoga in California without really get it. It was great to be back home and do the style that really works for me. Let's see this year I will write down each day how I feel about my practice of both meditation and yoga.I know it will work for me.
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